The Rockstar Second Chance Vol. 5 Rocker Girl Series

Chapter 3

He followed Dax and Nickels down one of the hospital wings and stopped when Nickels asked a nurse a question. She nodded at him and then looked over to Dax with a frown, then he looked at Jimmy.

"Come on." Nickels said again going down a hallway and stopping to talk to a nurse who looked Jimmy over then nodded.

"Where the fuck are we going?" He asked getting pissed. But when the nurse looked at him with discuss, something in his gut turned.

Nickels stopped at a door. "You'll see Jimmy." He answered, then pushed it open.

He stepped in, and what he saw stopped him cold in his tracks. Addison was asleep on the bed, the left side of her face battered and bruised with a deep gash under her eye. He could only imagine what her beautiful violet eye would look like right now. Her lip was swollen and split, and even from where he stood, he could see the bruises peeking out from under the hospital gown. "No, I didn't do this... I didn't do this to her again!" He whispered as his hands went to his head.

Dax ran his hand over his face. "Jimmy, you know you hit her when you're drunk. Those days must be running into a blur for you." He whispered harshly. "I saw her medical charts... you been doing this shit more and more lately from what it looks like. The last time you saw her, you broke her wrist. Her fucking wrist!"

"I know, that's why I didn't go after her when she first left me. I wanted to let her cool down from the fight we had. I was hoping that if she got away from me for a little bit, she would miss me enough to give me another chance and come back." He admitted.

Dax looked over at him in disbelief. "Now we know why she ran to hide from you. You knew what you were doing and you didn't stop." He accused. "And she was so fucking scared of you that she covered it up so none of us knew just how fucking bad it's gotten. I would've never told you a fucking thing about where she was at if I'd known this shit!"

That's when Nickels came up to him. "Last time I saw Addie she told me you put her in the hospital, and I thought she was bull shitting me because of my part with Crystal. But now I can see that I just didn't want to believe what she was saying." He sighed shaking his head. "Look, I know I kind of gave you the shove to screw Crystal, and told you that you could do better than Addison, and that was the beginning to all this. But what's done is done, it's time to man up to all this shit Jim and own your mistakes. You've fucked up and... it's over. It's time for you to let her go."

He stood there staring at the only woman that he ever loved and shook his head before pulling Nickels outside the room as Dax followed, and shut the door. "I can't do that, Nic, I love her to damn much. I swear I'll get better, no more drinking, drugs, or fucking woman... I swear!"

"Jim, it's too late for that..." Nickels sighed.

"You've said all that shit for three years now!" Dax seethed louder than necessary. "Were done there! You are getting the fucking help you need before you kill her, this has gone on long enough!" He roared causing everyone on the floor to look over at them. "You're signing those fucking papers today! I won't let you hurt her anymore, or fuck up yourself any worse than you've already done!" He growled turning and leaving Jimmy in the hall way.

He watched his best friend walk off, and he looked back into the room at his battered wife. The pain he felt at what he'd done was indescribable. "Let me at least say goodbye to her, Nic." He whispered.

"I don't think that's such a good idea..."

"I promise I won't wake her, okay. She won't have to see me... but I need to say goodbye to her if you want me to sign anything." He stated.

Nickels was quiet but then nodded. "Make your peace Jim, then it's time for you to work to get yourself back together." He answered, then pulled out his cell and put it up to his ear as he walked away.

Jimmy nodded walking back into the room where his baby girl was sleeping, and pulled up a chair quietly so he wouldn't disturb her. His fingers traced her swollen face as he held in the tears that wanted to fall. He did this, he did this to Addison, he did this to his own wife. "I guess you've heard me tell you I'm sorry before baby girl, but damn it... I'm so fucking sorry!" He whispered harshly.

"I know that you're done with me and want a divorce, but I've got to tell you, I don't want it. You're the only thing in my life that makes sense to me and the only thing in my life that I love so completely, it hurts just thinking that I might not ever see you again."

His hands went over his face, into his hair, then stayed at the back of his neck, as he tried to suck up all the pain he felt, because looking at his beautiful baby girl... he knew he deserved all the pain he feeling. "I love you Addison Paige Richardson. I'll love you with my dying breath baby girl, and after I'm no longer part of your life, just remember that for me, okay." He said wiping a couple tears that escaped.

"If you're ever feeling alone or unloved, remember there's a man out there who loves you more than his own life sweetheart, even though I fucked it up. And now, for once in my life, I'm going to do the right thing by you, and that's let you go." He whispered before getting up gently, kissing her busted lips, and walking out of the room never to see her again.