HIS SHADES OF LIFE

Chapter 48

"Daud.." I whispered in disbelief but he put his index finger on my lips.

"Don't make any decision in hurry, take as much as time you want. I'll wait, please try to make your decision in my favor." He said and cupped my face in his cold hands making me flinch a little in the process.

My heart isn't doing any favor to me as well, its beating are ten no! Hundred times faster than ever. He came closer, I clutched the bouquey in my hands and closed my eyes as he put his forehead on mine. Our nose touched each other, even actually our breaths mingled.

"I know you still love him.. But I'll wait noor until you fall for me. I promise you of God's that I won't ever hurt you, never force you but please become my companion till the last breath and after that in jannah (Paradise)." He said as his shaky breath fan over my face.

I opened my eyes and look into his glossy one's, my vision blurred, maybe I am crying. He pulled away slightly his face from mine not before planting a soft kiss on my forehead.

"Say something noor." He said, I casted my eyes down.

"Shall we..go home," I said as I look at him with nervousness, his eyes showed confusion.

"Its quite late, if.. Ammi will wake up what will I say to her?" I said looking at him and the ground time to time.

Than I slowly turn my back on him, closing my eyes letting the tears fall down as I took a deep breath before slowly walking towards the car. Everything's seems to happen slowly, this night is gonna be very long I know. I look halfway back and felt him walking behind me than my steps halted, so did his.

"Will you... Will you break our friendship if... My answer would be negative?" I asked still standing as it is.

There was a moment of silence between us, before I felt him really close to me. I felt his breath over my right ear as he started speaking.

"I have put my everything on the edge of destruction for you, if your answer will be in negative than it won't destroy me just as a wealthy man but I swear noor, I won't be able to look at any other woman and will never fall in love again that means there will be no life for Abu daud." He said making my heart heavy, accusing my answer for his destruction of life.

"Daud.." I said and was about to turn around but he hold my arm and didn't let me move from my spot.

"Noor, you are my only life now. I will do as you say, if you won't marry me its okay but don't expect me to marry someone else and start a new life. I won't force you noor, how can I? You are so gentle, so naive, so sensitive, so kind.. You light up my world, so how can I destroy you just for my selfishness. I will never noor, I love you very much.. God damn! Even this words aren't enough to express my feelings for you. Whenever you will need me, I'll be there for you always.. Remember noor always. No one will ever take your place in my life and about breaking our friendship is like breaking ties from you, and how can I break ties from my own life. If I do so, how will I live? Abu daud will only live for his noor." He said making me whimper in agony. I turn around as he let me this time but to only froze as I look at his torn expression.

I put the flowers down on the ground, as my steps came closer to his. I hold his arm, rubbing them slightly as I look at his chest.

"Ca-can you ple-please te-tell your heart to.. Wait for a bit? I ne-need some - sometime.. To think." I said looking at him, he smile slightly before engulfing me into a hug as I took no time to hug him back.