It Hurts Me, To Love You ~ A Riker Lynch Fanfic

Chapter 2

Ellie's POV

"Ell? Can I come in?" I heard the familiar voice of Riker ask as he knocked on my white bedroom door.

"Sure." I smiled as the door opened.

"Hey,how are you?" Riker asked,while hugging me tightly around the waist.

"I'm good thanks,you?" I replied squeezing him tighter.

"Yeah I'm good."

I plopped down onto my bed and Riker copied me.

Riker started to trace my cuts and scars softly with his index finger.

"Ow!" I squealed as he ran his finger over the cuts I had only just done.

"Ell..." Riker's voice trailed off as he saw how much it hurt.

"I'm sorry..." I stuttered.

"It's ok,don't do it again... You're too perfect to be hurting yourself." Riker whispered while kissing each and every scar on my arm.

"Can I see your arms?" I whispered timidly.

I wanted to see what fresh,untouched,unscarred skin looked and felt like.

"Sure."

I slowly rolled up Riker's long sleeve checked shirt and looked at his skin.

"AH!" I screamed,shocked at what was behind the cloth.

"What?" Riker asked worriedly.

"You,y-o-uu have the same scars as me!" I stuttered.

"Show me your arm..."

Riker and I put our arms next to each other and compared them.

The cuts were identical and the scars were in exactly the same place.

"This doesn't make any sense... I don't cut?" Riker cried.

"It must be every time I cut,you feel the pain too..."

Not only was I damaging myself,I was hurting Riker too.

I feel so,so angry for letting myself hurt Riker.

I wish I had known earlier...

The weight of the world started to pile back up on my shoulders.

I can't take this anymore...

I need relief.

With that I ran out of my bedroom,into the bathroom.

I pulled open the bathroom cabinet door with such a force, I'm surprised it hadn't ripped off and fallen on the floor yet.

My hands shook as I grabbed the blade and struck it against my skin.

"Ahhh!" I screamed in pain as the red liquid started to drip down my arm.

"Ellie?!" Riker shouted while running into the bathroom behind me.

"Don't look at me!"

"I want to,you're beautiful."

I fell to the floor and dropped the blade next to me.

Riker jogged over, picked up the blade and put it on the side.

He then knelt down next to me.

"You really don't believe me when I say that you're perfect do you?" Riker asked.

I shook my head no in response.

Riker took hold of both of my hands and looked deep into my eyes.