Letter #2
February 12th, 2019
Dear my love,
I'm writing this as I'm sitting next to you. Our relationship hangs in the balance, and I still feel love when I look into your eyes. Even though we could be minutes, hours, or days away from the end of our four year relationship, I still couldn't love you more. I know your heart hurts thinking it could be the end, but I need you to live your life. You deserve more than I can give you. I wish you were as in love with me as you used to be. I wish things could be different. I wish I could sleep with you and kiss you not thinking it could be the last time. I wish I was sure of our future. I want to be with you forever. I want you to propose one day. I used to be so sure of the future. You are the love of my life. I am my best self with you. You have helped me through my depression and my anxiety. You have been my best friend, and sometimes my only friend, for four years. I am forever grateful for you. Who ever you end up with in the future, she will be so lucky to have you. I am lucky. I had you for four years. I am a better person because you stepped into my life that day at church.
Sometimes I think about the day we met. You've told me that you seen me running up the stairs past you months before we met. I wish I would have seen you too. I do not know what you thought the first time you saw me, but I remember what I first thought when I saw you. There was something special about you. I wanted to be bold. I wanted you. I never knew how amazing you would turn out to be. I never knew you would be the person I want to spend the rest of my life with, but things change. And they have changed. For me and you, they've become more stressful. Sometimes I think it's too stressful for us to handle. All I can think is that the stress is the thing pulling us apart, or maybe it's my insecurities. Maybe if I was more confident. Maybe if I loved myself more, you would still love me. Maybe if I had been smarter, I would have never let this happen. No matter what happens, I want you, I need you to know, you are the love of my life, and I will never stop loving you.
Forever and always,
String bean
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Letter to my Love
RomanceThese letters are from a heart broken girl in an attempt to cope with everything in her life. She writes these letters to the love of her life, but he'll never see them. She uses them to understand her feelings.
