Somewhere I Belong

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Tiningnan ko ang aking relo habang bitbit ang kakabili ko lang na kape. Mabilis kong narating ang paborito kong pwesto, ang pinakadulong mesa sa kaliwang bahagi ng cafe kung saan malakas ang signal ng wifi.

Ala-sais pa lang ng umaga. Kaka-text lang ni Ailee na ready na siya at hinihintay na lang ang dalawa. May isa at kalahating oras pa bago magsimula ang program. So this is the feeling of being an early bird huh.

The cafe have tinted glass walls and that's why my favorite seat is here. Gusto ko yung nakikita ko ang nasa labas. Yung nakikita ko ang pagdaan ng mga tao at ng mga sasakyan. Watching outside while drinking my coffee and thinking always makes time pass by fast.

Maaga pa pero marami nang taong pumapasok at bumibili sa cafe pero wala namang nagtatagal sa loob. Siguro dahil sa lamig. Outside, I can already see a lot of students and parents entering the school. Nasa kabilang kalsada lang at kaharap ng Faye's cafe ang Solandis Gaia National School kaya paniguradong maraming kita ang cafe sa mga ganitong araw kung saan may importanteng occasion.

I take a sip of my brewed coffee as I check my phone. I can feel the coldness sipping into my bones despite the jacket that I'm wearing over my uniform.

I check my messenger, opening a new message from Ailee. She sent a photo. Naka-connect ako sa wifi ng cafe kaya thankfully, I can tap the "use data to see photo" button.

I struggle to stop a smile spreading across my cheeks. I'm actually feeling melancholic right now and in the mood to be nonstalgic while waiting for the time to pass by. But what she sent to me was too cute to ignore.

It's a stolen picture of the two of them, both looking at the large mirror in his room as he fixes his hair while the other one seems to be adjusting his necktie.

Ailee was never the type of person who will send you random pictures just to update you what's happening to her. I guess she just wants to share this moment because we all knew what we had to go through just to see that again.

I replied with a heart emoticon before putting my phone down. I look out to the street again, looking at the main gate of SGNS as I recall what happened throughout the school year.

It's been a rollercoaster ride of a year and
I remember how I hated entering that gate in my first day at what I used to consider my hell aka school. Not just at my first day actually. I really dreaded this school before.

But some people have changed that.

I let out a sigh as I take another sip from my drink. I look at the main gate again and I can see the familiar tall building from here.
I can even see that familiar green door with a big vase beside it and as nonstalgia hits me again, I close my eyes and I'm back at that certain classroom, a year ago, a complete different person from what I am right now.

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I just wanted to start my senior year as quietly and peacefully as I could. What I mean by that is staying in the corner of the room and minding my own business. I have no intentions of being an excellent student or what. I just want to survive my remaining two years in highschool without any stress or pressure.

I know it's impossible since it's senior high that we're talking about. Still, I had actually hoped.

Pero first day of school pa lang ay nasubok na kaagad ako.

Most of our morning classes are fine. Wala pang masyadong nagtuturo dahil nga first day pa lamang. Mga guro na mismo ang nagsabi na paniguradong sa susunod pa na linggo magsisimula ang mga actual classes.