It had been a couple days since my mum had passed away. No one really talked to each other, it was always quiet. Mentally, I wasn't doing too good, but I had to stay strong for now.
"I'm going to work." My dad called from the hallway. I was still in bed.
"K." I shouted down to him.
I was pretty sure that my brother was still asleep too.Eventually, I got up to make breakfast. I thought it would be nice to surprise James with breakfast in bed so I got to work on making some pancakes.
I stacked the six little pancakes on two plates, we had three each.As it was midday, I kind of expected my brother to come rushing downstairs. He normally does when he smells food cooking, but he doesn't. He never did.
Once I had finished playing it all up, I started up the stairs to his bedroom. I left my plate downstairs. I wanted to eat alone.
When I got to his door, I knocked twice. There was no response so I knocked twice again, this time calling his name after. Again, no response.
"Ok, I'm coming in." I said, barging through his door.
My eyebrows furrow when I walk in and find the room empty. I place the plate down on his dest looking around his room. His bed was made all nice and neat but placed on top of it was a piece of paper.
Confused, I walk over to James' bed and unfold the note.
If you are reading this, I am sincerely sorry.
When mum died, I felt like my whole world had just ended and I didn't know how to stop my hurt.
I didn't know how to survive something that made me feel so weak and numb.So I'm sorry but this was my choice.
James xTears now dappled across the piece of paper. Why? Why? That was all I could think but I knew why. He had explained but it wasn't enough for me.
I called my dad right after I had found out. My hands were shaking and I couldn't strong one sentence together. He came home immediately and called the police.
Later they found his body in a river.I never ate those pancakes. I didn't eat properly for the next year, which is why Willow is so protective.
It broke me into a million little pieces but I had to pick them all up again and keep going. For the sake of those who care about me, especially my dad.
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𝐋𝐢𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐦𝐲 𝐃𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐦//𝐌.𝐋.𝐌
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