hemming and hawing

Chapter 12

okay..

Okay lang?

ha? oo, kain na tayo, lalamig na yan.

Grabe naman, we can talk while we eat..

...

Ayaw mo ba?

Gusto, ako nagluto nito eh.

No, I mean, us? future with me?

Sir Justine, we-

Justine. Wala naman tayo sa office ah

Sorry po. Justine we're just starting this relationship, wala pa nga tayong one month eh ta-

two more days and one month na. We're now almost one month.

Okay, we're just almost a month in this relationship tapos nasa future ka na agad? I mean, don't get me wrong, of course I want it too. Pero hindi ba masyado pang maaga para pagusapan yung mga ganoon?

Leila, we're not teen agers, we're on our mid twenties, hindi na tayo bata. And wala naman sa tagal yun diba? It's how we will live our life, our marriage life.

I know, alam ko naman yun. But, don't you want to enjoy this stage frist? yung boyfriend girlfriend muna, yung ganito? yung wala pang masyadong responsibilities.

Pero mas maganda na ngayon pa lang napaguusapan na natin, kasi doon din naman tayo mapupunta diba?

Oo nga, pero Justine my point is, nakakalunod yung bilis natin eh. Imagine on moment we're not talking and then we're dating and then we're officially together and then now marriage? May hinahabol ka ba?

Wala naman, gusto ko lang naman pagusapan, it doens't mean we're getting married tomorrow if we talked about it now. Anyway, I get it. Sige na, ako na maghuhugas, ikaw naman nagluto. Rest ka muna.

Ha? ako na, I know you're tired from your flight. Ako na, you can sit muna doon sa sala. Sandali lang to. she said and he nodded as he walked towards her living room. She took a deep breath, and just start washing all the plates.

After a while she came back and found him watching television so she sat beside him on the sofa.

galit ka po? she asked, hugging him sideways.

No, why would I get mad? Sabi ko sayo diba? I will never get mad at you. He said, puttinh his arm around her.

I know, I just feel - I don't know, it's just that talking about the future now really made me feel so awkward.

can I ask?

Oo naman,

Do you see yourself settling down?

Oo naman, I want to get married with you.

No, I mean kahit hindi sa akin, yung ikaw? nakikita mo ba na ikakasal ka? Magkakaroon ng mga anak,

Ayoko.

Ha? Ayaw mo?

Ayoko ng iba kasi. BAkit ba ganun yung tanong mo? I may feel awkward talking about it but I can see myself marrying you and building family with you, not with anyone else. Sayo lang.

Oh, bakit naiiyak ka na? I'm sorry, hindi rin naman ako papayag na may iba eh.

Dapat lang.

Grabe naman, umiyak na talaga. huy, wag ka na umiyak, nagtatanong lang naman ako eh.

Bakit mo kasi naisip na ayoko yun sayo tapos sa iba naiisip ko? Ikaw ba naiisip mo yun sa iba tapos hindi sakin?

Ha? hindi ah. Sayo lang, sayo ko lang naiisip yun.

I'm sorry if I am not yet ready to talk about it but please know I want it, It's just that I am not ready yet. Please, stop thinking na naiisip ko yun but not with you, kasi hindi, never, I cannot see myself marrying if it is not with you. Hindi lang talaga ako ready na pagusapan pa ngayon, pakiramdam ko sobrang bilis. Can we take it slow please? Alam kong hindi na tayo pabata, but we can still take our time right? We can still take things slow? We can do it on our own phase?

Oo naman, Im sorry rin if talking about it makes you uncomfortable and if it seems I am pressuring you. We will take things slow. We will do it on our phase, that I promise you.

Thank you, no pressure ha. Kahit pa ano sabihin ng mga tao sa paligid natin. ha?

Oo naman, is there something happen at may ibang tao na involve ngayon?

Wala, baka lang kasi nappressure na tayo pareho sa ibang tao na nasa paligid natin. Everyone around us are starting building their family, yung ibang kabatch natin may mga asawa ata anak na.Ayoko magmadali just because of that.

Ayoko rin naman ng ganoon, I want us to be on our perfect time. It will happen eventually. Naiisip ko lang naman, hindi naman ibig sabihin noon eh a mangyayari kaagad. Wag ka na mapressure. please?

I love you,

Uy! ang sarap naman nun.

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Bakit ka nahihiya? Sumiksik na nga. he said laughing at her.

Nahihiya na nga, pinagtatawanan pa.

I love you Leila, he said tilting her chin so they are eye level

I love you too.

She said smiling at him, as he moves closer to her and when their lips met he gave her a tender kiss, pouring out love and respect for each other.

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Hello! Because I saw that there are still some reading this book, I have decided to update another chapter. Sana makapagupdate ulit next week, if ever this will be a weekly updates. And, I guess eight more chapters to end this book so I could focus on my other book which is "Greatest Dream".

THANK YOU sa mga nagbasa, nagbabasa, at magbabasa. MARAMING SALAMAT PO. PASENSYA NA SA CHAPTER NA ITO AT MEDYO SABAW AKO HAHAHA.

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I apologised for all the errors for this is not yet proofread.

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