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i just wanna end it
i was getting better from the drama with alvaro, i got a therapist and got more help.
but here i am at 1 am getting texts from him, where he fills me with guilt.
when i left him i had never felt worse.
i stopped eating, i started cutting, i never left my bed, i didn't move from my bed.
if i even moved my leg it felt as if they were jello.
i was weak, and at my lowest. i had never got this bad.
i cannot explain the pain i felt.
everytime i reached for my phone my heart would feel heavy because the thought of him surfaced.
every photo, everything, i all thought of him.
i couldn't escape him.
i cried my heart out for two weeks, and if i ever left my bed it was to hurt myself.
but as i text this i see his number pop up with a notification.
every single word he says makes me feel worse.
im spiraling down into a pit of pain.
i know when i left i hurt him, but why is it i get the blame?
why do i wanna die again after all my progress..
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