One way or another

19.

Saturday 8.50 pm

*I forgot to make groceries today and realised that tomorrow everything will be closed. It was already dark and shops were closing soon. I went out as soon as possible, it was really close so I walked. When I reached my house somebody was sitting on my porch*

- finally your back - the man stood up and I realised it was Josh

- what, I mean, hey, but - I was straight up confused - how did u find my house, why are you here

- I'm really sorry to come like this but your the only person I can trust right now.

- what happened - we went inside - do you need anything? Something to drink or eat - I asked while putting the groceries into the fridge

- no thanks, would it be ok if I stayed here? - he looked at me from under his hoodie, I couldn't resist helping him, suddenly I felt a warm feeling when he was looking at me - for the night? - he finished waking me up

- oh yes, of course - I looked worried - you can sleep in my brothers room - he went for a sleepover to his friends - I'll go get some fresh sheets

- wait can you stay here with me - there was a few seconds of silence - you know what, I'm sorry, I'm acting like an idiot I'll just head home

- wait, no, stay here - I grabbed his wrist when he was walking towards the door - I could use your company - I smiled gently, he smiled back

*I made us some coffee and gave him a quick house tour. We stayed up all night talking, he explained all that's happened with him and Nessa. I really felt bad for him. Not only did his girlfriend cheat on him, but so did his best friend. They lived in the same "Hype House" so he didn't have where to go. I was actually glad he came, but I still had no clue how he got my address*

- hey - I said breaking the peaceful silence - I forgot to ask how you found my house - I sounded curious and kind of worried

- I have to say - he stopped looking embarrassed - I've been looking through your Instagram - he admitted looking very ashamed - under one post you set your location here - I tried not to laugh but he looked so damn cute feeling so guilty

- it's fine - I smiled and he looked surprised, probably thinking I'd get mad like the first time. He of course was waiting for my explanation - well I also have a confession - he cheered up and gave me a mischief smile - I've also been looking through your posts - I'm 100% sure I blushed because he stared laughing 

*the sun started rising but we weren't tired. I went to the bathroom and grabbed us something to eat. We talked for a while and then lay for a bit in silence. It felt really nice just sitting there covered in blankets. Normally it would be awkward for it to be so quiet, but it was different with Josh. I really liked it*

-Your house is nice - he suddenly said out of nowhere - I like the simple design

-really? its pretty dull - I looked him in the eye - I would love to live in your house, you even have a pool - I talked about my dream house and all my goals when I realised he was staring at me - what? why are you staring

- nothing - he was still looking at me with a grin - its just that you're so different from Nessa and most girls I've met.

- is that a good thing? - I asked and realised we were sitting oddly close to each other

- it most certainly is - he slowly leaned forward looking at my mouth

- you know - I started almost whispering - I'm not sure this is such a great idea - our lips were millimetres apart, one sudden move and...

- you're right - he said directly into my ear and I could feel his warm breath. I could sense his body tensing up, and heart beating rapidly from nerves. Mine was too - I'm sorry - he stood up and before I could say anything he went into my brothers room.

*it was one of the best nights in my life. I have never connected so much with anyone. We talked about every possible topic, it was just perfect. I just wish things ended up differently. He probably feels lost. I really want to help him but I'm not sure how. After a while I fell asleep on the couch*

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