Rain of Nightmares (Medical Series #2)

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"No." Rhea's firmed voice echoed throughout the hallway. She glanced at me again before turning to Cy with her cold eyes. "Time will come. You'll end up needing me again." She then turned her back at us like nothing happened.

I heaved a deep sigh when she finally disappeared from my sight. Cy looked at me with so much concern as he walks towards me to give me a tight hug.

As much as I want to get mad, I still contained myself. Cy didn't see a single hint that I'm quite bothered and angry with him for some reason. There's this part of myself that just want to trust my instinct.

"Did she hurt you? Are you okay?" He cupped my face with so much care.

I held his hand, slowly putting it down. I nodded as an answer. "Magbibihis lang ako, okay? We're gonna be late."

But deep down in myself, I know I'm not okay. My trust issues were building up. I breathed heavily as I whispered to myself: Cy, please don't break my trust. It's been hard for me to build those walls you broke. I can't imagine seeing myself hurting again just because I trusted you like a fool thinking you'll never hurt me.

"Saan tayo after mass?" Cy suddenly asked me while we're in the car. Papunta kami ngayon sa simbahan pero nagp-plano na siya kung saan na naman kami gagala.

 He called me for so many times until he decided to say my first name to gain my attention. I purposely don't want to listen to him because I'm still trying my hardest to ignore Rhea's words.

"Ha?" Napatingin ako sa kaniya. Parang nagulat naman siya dahil sa ekspresyon kong walang gana.

He smiled at me." Ang sabi ko, saan tayo after mass. Kukunin mo ba muna 'yong result sa hospital? Hindi mo pa 'yon nakukuha 'di ba?" 

Yeah, right. I totally forgot it. I even forgot my plan of becoming a webtoon artist because of him.

I slowly nodded. "Ikaw bahala."

"You want to go to the park after?" He asked again when he noticed that I fell silent.

"Your choice." Walang kagana-gana kong sagot. Nakatingin lang ako sa bintana, hindi na pinapansin ang mga titig niya.

"Are you mad?" His soft voice appeared. "About Rhea... I promise I'm no--"

"It's not a big deal for me." I looked like a total stranger to him for a second but I still endured it. I am not okay! I just want to avoid dramas.

"O-Okay." He sounded hurt. Maybe because he thought that I'll be jealous and be mad at him. 

Yes, I am. But I just don't want to spit it out. I'm not a child to be bothered with these kind of shits in the relationships. CJ knows me better than anyone. Even from Cy. Sometimes, I just can't help but to compare him with my first love. I know it's bad and insulting for him--but I just can't help it.