Fix me

Her Feelings

Shuhua thoughts

Three weeks have past and here I am finding myself slowly coming to terms with my Dad passing away

Do I still cry? Yes, did I overthink too much at night? Yes. Sometimes I'd get a wave of sadness crash on me, but I'm slowly getting better I didn't stay in my room anymore and I think now I'm ready to tel my members what I've been struggling with.

The only reason I'm getting better is because Soojin, I knew that if it wasn't for her sticking by my side I would've been truly depressed.

She has stayed by my side every single day making me feel the most love I've ever felt in a while. I just hope I'm not a burden.

Aside from my troubles I've come to terms with my growing feeling toward Soojin, I mean I've always liked her, but I'd say love was the word now.

Hell I try thinking of being in a relationship with her, but My thoughts go straight back to worrying about myself first. Selfish of me? I'm not sure

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4pm (Shuhua)

I was laying in bed looking at the ceiling "I have yet to tell the others" swear this is stressing me out

Yuqi rushed in my room with a slice of cake

"Are you sharing" I pointed a the cake "or you can get out if you aren't" sticking my tongue out , Yuqi are a slice in my face

"No I'm not sharing, I just came to show off what I'm eating" Yuqi smirked

I crossed my arms "you suck Song Yuqi"

She laughed out the room till I heard the plate drop on the floor "NOOO MY CAKE"

I got up from bed laughing "that's what you get dork, next time you should share"

I turned back around till I felt hands on my waist

"Hmm, you seem happy today" Soojin sweetly said

Moments like these made me really flustered

"Something like that" I smiled, "what do we have planned today" I curiously asked

"Ehh you finally want to go out" she started pinching my cheeks

"yaaa stop that hurts" I started to pout holding my face "No, But we can do some online shopping"

"Cute" Soojin whispered, but I heard it

I sat on the bed looking at the most beautiful girl ever "hey Soojin"

"What's up"

I grabbed her hand to sit down

"I think I'm ready to tell them"

Soojin placed her arm around my shoulder and looked me in the eyes

"I think they'd liked that"

Neither of us looking away from each other. I felt my heart start to beat faster

I noticed Soojin leaning in closer till Miyeon rushed in the room we quickly moved away

Miyeon yelled "Oh my God did I just pussy block I'm so sorry" she slammed the door

"I'll be right back" she quietly said standing up

"I. okay" I noticed her blushing like crazy and I knew I was too.

Got damn it, I'm confused now, she leaned In first and I could swear we were about kiss, but now she is leaving.