Love The Way You Lie

15: EVERYWHERE I GO

You see a lot of Derek, your husband, here.

It's in the clothes you know are his that are scattered around. It's in his degrees lining the walls. It's in his favorite mugs that are in the tiny little kitchen.

You wish you could squish Derek into a tiny little box like this, and leave him, and maybe forget about him...

But you can't, and you don't. Or you won't.

Whatever.

You're here now and Derek is here now and a part of him wants you here.

"I fucked her on that bed," Derek brags to you.

You're jealous of him and he knows it.

"Umm," you don't know what to say to that.

"I fucked her real good and she liked it," Derek continues.

She probably did, you think. Derek isn't terrible in the 'fucking,' department, and you know at the very least that Derek wouldn't fuck someone who doesn't actually want it.

"Umm," you say because you have no idea.

"I fucked her like-" Derek is gesturing for you to come to join him and he has that twinkle in his eye like he knows you'll probably say yes.

Curiosity bubbles in you and you do want to know. You want to imagine how she felt when he took her. You want to imagine it was you doing her and not him.

He knows it and you know it.

And you're both getting off on the same thought.

Meredith.

He thinks of her and so do you. And he hasn't said her name and neither have you.

But you don't have to.

Because he already knows.

Derek starts taking your clothes off and you're surprised at how tender he is.

He has not been this way with you since you started dating.

But then again, you realize his torture is that he's not on lying showing you... He's showing you EXACTLY what he did to her.

Right down to the details of demonstrating he's capable of a soft touch of seduction.

He's hurting you because he knows you love her, too and the way he's going to do you the way he did her, he's going to prove to you why she could fall in love with him and not you.

Bastard.

You want it though, despite yourself.

Derek hasn't given you lovemaking like this since before you were married. Or many the night you got married. Maybe both but never more than those times.

You know he has you hooked right now.

He's hooking your shirt in his fingers and he has his dreamy Derek eyes on you.

You bet she loves those dreamy Derek eyes.

"How do you want me?" You ask him. You feel that Meredith would ask him.

You know you're right when he grins at you knowingly.

"I want you on your knees," Derek smirks at you. Of course.

You kneel in front of him, knowing he'll take his own pleasure first before offering you, yours.

He always does.