Date: 3-May-2020
Filza's Pov:
Stop.
Full Stop.
A whole blackout..!
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This is my life. A complete lost. Not knowing what to do.
Not that I was like this always, but yeah I never cared. I was a carefree girl, especially a nerd.
And when I look back at my life, I laugh, I cry, I zone out, become shocked, depressed and every emotion you can think of!
I tried, I'm still trying, every possible way to come on the track but still there are some pieces missing, to complete the puzzle, or maybe, life is a puzzle, you just have to find the right pieces and fix those in the right places. Maybe it never meant to be complete!
In everybody's life, there is a certain point, at different ages, 12 or 16 or 20, it can be late 30's or 40's, or maybe, when you are sitting on the sofa and thinking, looking at the sky 'Mayn..what had I done', a certain moment when you get the 340 volt shock, when your life take a turn of 360 degree, And you feel like a complete idiot. Like how can you be so stupid to waste this much of your life!
I was going to be 19 in two months, when I went through this. When I stumbled, I felt like I had fallen from the 10th floor.
But mine change was a positive one.Alhumdulillah, and for that I'm grateful to Allah. I've seen many souls turning to a bad one after facing this much change.
My journey towards Allah is not something people get inspired from, but it inspired me, cauz it changed me. The thing which changed my life completely was a 4 lettered word...
Love!
As an underage I never thought about this topic, I always hated it.
Like how, how can people, precisely a boy and a girl can love each other without knowing themselves completely, how can they bring shame for their families, why do they not care about the questioning of their parents' upbringing, how can they do the haram things!
This was how a 5 grader, a nerd, thought at that time, not knowing the disaster I will be facing due to this word!!
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Assalam u alaikum my sweeties, (sorry if anyone is boy here :P)
Don't know anything if I'm going to continue this or not..!! Totally depends on ur response.
Till the, take care and stay safe.
Love, Your Crazy.
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SpiritualShe loved him, she cared for him, she devoted herself for him, but in return what she got made her realized her mistakes. Story of a teen, Filza Siddiqui, 19-year old hijabi, who faced many hurdles and hardships, before realizing her love for her c...
