Jealous {Ongoing}

KISSING?

"Umm Emily I need to talk to you" he says looking serious he looked worried, but I shrugged it off

"Sure" I peek at him as we walk noticing the clenching and unclenching of his jaw he looked nervous. His hands hidden in his jeans pockets. When we got to my room I closed the door behind us "what's wrong Jason?" I ask

He didn't reply he kept staring at the floor as if he was in deep thoughts "Jason"

nothing

I walked up to him putting my hands on his broad shoulders "Jason are you okay?"

"Umm yeah" he replies not looking away from the floor

I knitted my eyebrows I knew something was troubling him then a sudden realization hit me "wait has something happened to Sophia?"

"No" he replied bluntly

"Then what's wrong?" I ask trying to search his eyes for anything

He finally looked up at me but before I knew it his arms wrapped around my waist, pulling me back against him he was so close to me the touch of his grip sent tingles down my skin, our nose were touching and before I could react he pulled me closer pressing his lips against mine, I freeze for a second then react moving my lips in sync with his. I wrap my hands around his neck and he grabs my waist. His tongue grazing my bottom lip asking for an entrance which I granted him, a lustful moan sound escaped his lips moulding his and my lips even closer. His hands moved to my hair playing with it and pulling me ever closer as we deepened the kiss.

I grab onto his shirt pulling him tight against him, as my hands moved up and down his chest feeling him, his muscles tense for a bit, before he finally releases himself. I wanted to melt into him, my legs were feeling weak. If not for Jason's hands gripping me I would have falling on the floor. My hands moved up to cup his cheeks as my tongue connected with his.

I suddenly realized what I was doing as much as I enjoyed the kiss, as much I wanted to stay there forever I couldn't my eyes opened wide and I pushed him the both of us panting "Jason what did we just do?"

"We kissed" he said looking into my eyes

"No no no" I sighed

"I love you Emily" he whispered into my ear, pulling me closer, as he held my hips "I love you, I don't know when and how, but I love you, my voice has been telling me that I love you, and I am not sure because I don't know how to love. I fucking love you and trust me you can't understand how I feel because I don't understand what I feel too, i don't know what you have done to me, the past few weeks that I have met you I have never felt this way for any girl before" he says

I was so shocked. Jason liking me? it sounded weird

He pulled me closer to him "I thought you hated me" I whisper to him.

"I did but you changed me"

"How?"

"You made me fall in love with you" I sighed before looking up at him

"we vowed never to fall in love"

"But do you love me?"

I don't love you Jason how can I love you

I wish I had the heart to tell him that, but I can't he changed for me, and now he has fallen for me I wasn't sure whether or not to be happy that he likes me, I didn't know how to answer that question without hurting him. This badass that can't do without flirting or having sex twice a day, this player, this boy, I thought he didn't have any emotions actually has one for me, I didn't want to break his heart, neither could I tell him I love him that's how I am, I can be nice and rude sometimes but I can never pretend I like someone when I don't. Well except if it's necessary

I looked at him in the eyes for something that felt forever he was still waiting for his question to be answered he cupped his hands on my face "do you love me Emily?" He asked again I could sense fear in his voice

"Jason I thought you love Sophia?" I said trying to ignore the question, trying to tell him I'm not interested, neither do I feel anything for him. But without telling him.

He sighed, his hands moving to the back of my trousers, "Emily I never liked Sophia, I don't have any emotions whatsoever for her the reason I just agreed to do this was to have Sophia back and then dump her I never liked her"

Once he said that I got angry to be honest I never had any grudge with Sophia, in fact I liked her she was nice and all but the fact that this idiot used me just to dump someone was just off I felt bad for ever wanting to make two people jealous I would have destroyed their lives Sophia didn't deserve that

"Em do you love me?" He asked again making me get more angry

"No!" I yelled with no regret and his hands dropped down my face and were on his sides "I don't know what goes on in that your sick filthy head, why would you want to use her and dump her? does that even make sense to you? If you didn't like her you should have left her. You Know what, I didn't want to hurt your feelings by telling you I didn't like you, I don't Jason I will never like someone as stingy as you!" I yelled putting out all my frustration on him

He squinted his eyes "and the kiss?"

"It was a mistake Jason forget about it, and guess what? I don't care about you, let's just say we broke up I never knew the intentions you had that wasn't in the deal!" I yelled more "you stingy little moron at least I won't destroy my friends relationship, I never loved you Jason and I never will, I HATE YOU!" I yelled "the biggest mistake I have ever made is by meeting you, you will never change you will always be a spoilt little brat you psyco, you brainless asshole, you are nothing but an idiot. I see what you're trying to do you want to use me and dump me like Sophia right?" I said pushing him by his chest

"I don't care if Dasmen will ever love me as much as I love him, I can wait, but you?" I said pointing my index finger at him "I will never wait for you not in this life and other lives to come" my voice cracking from all the yelling, I was lucky that my door was sound proof

He didn't say anything he looked at me as if he couldn't believe what I said he didn't wait for me to talk he left my room shutting it very hard that I thought he might break it. I flinched, not believing what had just happened.