he started driving there and he played some lil uzi vert. me and him were kinda quiet but vibin, were not like the i don't know the most talkative plus we just met so we're not out our comfort zone or anything. after 20 minutes we arrived.
m: wait right there
y/n: okay?
i saw mattia turn off his car and get out his seat. a couple seconds later my door opened up, wow.
m: come on let's head in
y/n: thanks
m: mhm
we both went up to the theatre. he bought the tickets online so we just had someone scan the QR code and walked in.
m: hey are you hungry?
y/n: no
m: come on
y/n: okay a little
m: do you want uh ice cream, popcorn, candy?
y/n: i'll get it
m: come on my treat
y/n: hm i just wanted m&m's
m: well m&m's you got
he said while grabbing it off the rack
he also grabbed a pretzel for himself and went up to grab it. after paying for it he grabbed mustard. i questioned him.
y/n: mustard?
m: yeah for my pretzel
y/n: ew
m: what do you mean ew it's good
y/n: mm mm
m: don't knock it till you try it
y/n: yeah yeah
we both walked into the room where the movie was playing. we sat down in the back and started eating the snacks we got.
y/n: hey thanks for the m&m's
m: no problem
y/n: um look i don't know if i wanna date you if alejandro is already being weird
m: come on don't let your brother get in the way
y/n: i'm not trying too it's just th-
suddenly i felt lips pressed against mind. his lips were so soft and smooth. i kissed him back and when we stopped kissing he just looked me in my eyes and said.
"you're gonna be mine whether ale likes it or not."
my heart 🥺
i just smiled at him looking down and he lifted my chin up with his finger kissing me again. kissing him was like heaven. it just felt so relaxing everytime. he made me smile, blush, happy. a different happy from my family and friends. i never felt this type of happy before. was it love? it can't be we only been crushing for a little....
it's whatever, i'm not gonna question it i'm just gonna enjoy the present with him. he's a good guy and i loved being around him. it was nice.
kairi pov:
today i had my doctor appointment.
for yeah....
adhd.
i hated having it, well
i HATE having it.
as in right fucking now.
i hate the way it makes me hyper.
i hate that it makes me stutter.
i hate how it makes me feel sad and mad, aswell as
out of place with everyone else.
i just feel so different compared to everyone else,
a bad different.
i grabbed my phone and was heading to the car until my sister grabbed my arm. i looked up.
k sis: you're gonna be okay right
k: yeah why wouldn't i be
i gulped
k sis: i'm just wondering why you're going to the doctors are you sick?
k: uh no of course not just a checkup
k sis: but we get them at the same time
k: uh well it's just to see if i got all my shots
k sis: oh well good luck
k: thanks sis
k sis: mhm
our older cousin was coming to watch her for the next 2-3 hours, tanya.
me and my mom started driving there. we picked up some taco bell before heading there. i ate into my quesadilla while texting my cousin tanya
* tanya and kai chat *
k: keep her company please
t: yak kai
k: just checking in
t: you worry too much cuzzo
k: sadly
when me and my mom got there i felt my stomach drop. i felt scared to even go and get checked out. i didn't wanna know the truth about me, i know i wasn't going to like it. i just scratched my head and me and my mom headed inside. we sat down for a good 15 minutes before getting called in. we went into the room and started talking about when it all started.
i been diagnosed since i was eight. that's when my dad left. right when he found out. he packed his bags, argued with my mom and dipped. he never texted us or even say another word to us since then. guess he didn't want a weird child. i feel bad that my sister doesn't remember him. well it sucks but maybe it's a good thing... so she doesn't ask me questions i don't even know the answer too.
i was thinking a lot about my dad, then how my mom and him fought. how she begged him not to go. it was all my fault that he even left, that guilt carries on with me every single day.
if i didn't have adhd my dad would still be here.
if i didn't have adhd my life would be so much better.
i just kept thinking. about everything. i miss my dad.
then suddenly i saw hands going in front of my face. i jumped a little and turned.
k mom: are you listening?
k: oh uh yeah of course
k mom: kai
k: sorry i wasn't but i'll do it right now
doctor: well kai i was wondering which prescription to give you first. for the medicine to actually work you need to use it for two weeks then it'll start working for your adhd
k: what do you mean
doctor: i- well. so like you might feel like sad the first couple days and then you're not gonna wanna take them because "there not working" when you have to give it two weeks in order for them to work
k: no i cant risk that
doctor: i'm sorry?
k mom: kai
k: no none of my friends know and if it's gonna make me act different then i rather spent the rest of my life hiding it
k mom: kai come on just try it
doctor: it's called adderall there is some side effects but you will get used to them and be fine.
k: ... i guess i'll give it a shot
doctor: alright you need to take one pill in the morning and then again in 7-8 hours because that's when it starts to ware off
k: alright thanks doc
doctor: no problem i'll see you in three weeks
k: ....
k mom: so are you happy?
k: about what
k mom: that we have your medication
k: i'm scared to take it
k mom: why boy
k: i just don't wanna act different and not be able to control myself....
k mom: kai baby. your friends might not know, but they will soon.
k: i'm never telling them mom, ever.
k mom: why
k: there not gonna wanna be friends or they'll see me different
k mom: no no now if they are real friends the bond will be the same or stronger since you trusted them with something so big.
k: thanks mom.
