The comments//JH

fourteen

Jaysea

Josh and Nessa went back to the house about an hour ago, but Jaden stayed with me. We were currently trying to have a cute little movie date but these hospital beds are so small.

"Ahh, your squishing me" I laughed pushing Jaden over

"It's all your big butt" he laughed nuzzling his head into my shoulder

"you like my big butt" I joked smiling at him 

"you're right" he smirked at me and I just rolled my eyes

"I want to spend the rest of the time that I have with you" I whispered turning my head to face him. His eyes met mine before he said

"I don't care how long we have, as long as I spend it with you" He explained

"I wish we had longer" I said burying my head into his chest

"So do I baby, but I'm not going anywhere in the mean time" he whispered into my hair

"This movie is so stupid" I laughed as the brothers in the movie fought over a drumset

"Step Brothers is a classic" he said looking offended

I laughed at his attempt to be offended

"Well if you don't like it then we might have to break up" he joked but tried to look serious. Two can play that game Hossler

"Who said we were dating" I shot back it is kinda true he hasn't asked but I know he's scared and so am I. I feel like this whole cancer thing has opened up my mind to things. I could die in any moment and I don't want to spend my time being affraid to love this boy

"wow, I just got owned" he laughed nervously

"hey there is no rush" I smiled turning his head to face me

"I don't want to fuck this up" he said looking me in the eyes

this boy is very hard to read sometimes

"How could you fuck this up" I asked him

"I feel like I fuck up everything I do" he said seriously but, I couldn't help but burt out laughing

"what?" he asked smiling at me

"you haven't done me" I laughed louder my eyes started to tear up

"you are such a child" he laughed turning away

"yet" I finished my sentence

"what?" he asked confused

"you haven't done me...yet" I trailed on being fully serious and looking back to his eyes

I can't lie I have definitally thought about this boy in bed. I can feel my cheeks getting hot just thinking about it

He moved closer and our lips were almost touching "is that a promise?" he whispered seductivly

"only if you want it to be" I whispered back

should I tell him I'm a virgin? He's gonna think im so pathetic.

"what's wrong?" he asked tilting my head back up to look into his eyes he could tell something was bothering me

"I...um..I've never.." I trailed on hoping that he wouldn't make me say it

"you've never had sex" he finished

I nodded back to him looking at my hands

"okay...so?" he said as if he didn't care