My Secret Crush // Choi Beomgyu

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Y/N's POV
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I finally felt relieved. Thanks to Beomgyu. I think my feelings for Yeonjun have officially discarded.
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Home
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"Ani. I can't. I can't. That's impossible," I said to myself on the bed.

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There's no way I like Beomgyu. Why is he all I could think about? I can't even think about Yeonjun anymore. Why do I keep replaying the scene when we hugged. And the times we spent together. It can't be. Was Yeonjun just a small crush? I already moved on so fast. After that hug, my worries faded away. I finally stopped thinking about Yeonjun. My feelings for him faded. But then my feelings for Beomgyu. Appeared.
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"Y/N?" My mom said opening my bedroom. door.

"Hmm?" I say as she sat on my bed looking at me.

"Honey. I know you're in your last year of high school now."

"Yeah.."

"I always hear you talking to yourself in your room about this boy.."

"Eomma!" I said as I quickly got up.

"It's normal. I heard you sleep talking last night too. You kept saying his name. 'Beomgyu.' His name sounds familiar."

"That's embarrassing.." I say as I covered my face.

"It's not our neighbor right? Choi Beomgyu?"

"You know them?"

"Mmh. We met once but I don't know if it's him. The one you like. Is it?"

"Uh.."

"It is! Ah jinja! You chose the right one!"

"Eomma! Please!"

"Fighting!" She says as she finally leaves my room.

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Aish. Wait. Am I really that loud? So she thinks I like Beomgyu now? I honestly don't know how I feel about anyone now. I do get butterflies in my stomach when I'm around Beomgyu. But it feels different when I'm around him. Is it because he's not as cold hearted as he was before?
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The next day
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Lunch
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I sighed. I think I feel better now. I took small glances of Beomgyu as I was eating my lunch. I sighed and left the cafeteria going to the rooftop.
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I sat down on the bench sighing. Why does it feel like everything is changing now? Why are my feelings for changing? I can't possibly like Beomgyu right. Why do I feel like I like him a lot.
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I can't expose my feelings for him. I have to hold onto these feelings for him. I'll just keep it a secret, even though he likes me. I don't think I'm ready to date. So Yeonjun was only a short term crush then. I cried over him like an idiot. But Beomgyu was still there for me, even though he knew I had feelings for Yeonjun. But now I like Beomgyu.
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Last period
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"Huh?" I say.

"It's February 8th not February 6th," Yeonjun says pointing at the date on my paper.

"Uh oh!" I say as I quickly erased it and fixed the date.

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As time passed, the feelings I had for Yeonjun faded away. It felt normal again, but the butterflies in my stomach disappeared.
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"Where's your hair clip?"

"Huh? Oh it's in my room, don't worry I didn't throw it away."

"You should wear it more."

"Araso I'll wear it tomorrow," I say smiling.

"Good," he says smiling as he ruffled my hair.

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I smiled. Then I heard someone clear their throat. It was really loud. I looked back and saw that it was Beomgyu. I furrowed my eyebrows at him as his lips were tight and he crossed his arms as he rolled his eyes at me. I sighed and looked away.
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What was that for? Was he jealous because Yeonjun ruffled my hair? Beomgyu. Are you jealous? I'm clueless. I don't know anything about your feelings. It's so hard to read you. You ruffled my hair before. Yesterday we hugged. It's funny. We pretend that we are strangers at school. But then once we leave, we are friends.
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I looked at my paper, and creaked a smile. If that was him showing that he was jealous... then ah. I don't know. It makes me happy. He's probably the type who gets jealous easily. But I would be too.
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"Beomgyu ouch.." Seo-Hyeon suddenly says.

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I suddenly turned around.
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"Wai?"

"Do you have a ban aid?" she says showing a cut on her finger.

"Ani. Ask someone else," he says as he catches me looking at him, I quickly turned back around.
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I widened my eyes. He just caught me looking at him. Oh no. I covered my face as it started to heat up.
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Dismissal
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I walked out the classroom sighing. Beomgyu must be too busy to walk home with me or take the bus.
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The next day
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I finally wore the hair clip Yeonjun gave me. It felt weird wearing it. Oh well. I sat down next to Yeonjun.
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"Oh you're wearing it!" He says smiling.

"Mmh."

"Wah. It looks nice on you."

"Oh I forgot, my grades are getting way better."

"Ah jinja? Just call me if you need me to help tutor okay?"

"Araso."

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Lunch
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I went to my locker after I finished eating, to grab my coat because it got cold. As I closed my locker I saw Beomgyu.

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"Yah.." I say as I widened my eyes.

"Wai?"

"What are you doing? You scared me."

"Why are we acting like strangers at school, hm?" he says putting his right against the locker.

"I don't know. You don't talk to me so.."

"What is this?" He says as he looks at my hair clip, touching it.

"Hm?"

"Why are you wearing this still? You don't like him still right?"

"Huh? Oh um.."

"You still like him?" He says as he grabs onto my shoulders and reaches my level.

"I don't like him anymore. But he just wanted me to wear it," I say as I widened my eyes.

"Good. Don't like him anymore okay? You were so sad because of him," he says looking into my eyes.

"I already said that I don't like him."

"Good. I'll get you a even prettier hair clip. Meet me at the rooftop tomorrow at lunch okay?"

"Wai?"

"Just meet me there okay?"

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