Fleeting Glimpse Of Love (Dela Salde Series #1)

Kabanata 2

Kabanata 2

I wasn't able to sleep well that night. I kept on thinking whether what Zoren told me is true or not.

Why would he show up out of nowhere, giving me a letter and chocolates that weren't from him?

Kahit itanggi niya, kumbinsido pa rin akong sa kanya lahat iyon galing until I read it.

The words and the emotions in that letter were raw; a guy like him, cunning and manipulative, couldn't be the reason for it.

Dear Sterling,

Writing to you is the hardest thing. I can't summarize everything I want to say in just a piece of paper. I wanted to talk to you personally but now is not the right time.

I was given hope that I can at least, let you know how I truly feel through this letter. I don't know how or when it started. I couldn't even give a good, profound reason why of all people, it's you. All I know is that feeling this way for you is the best thing that's ever happened to me.

I kept asking myself, am I worth it? The way I see it, it's impossible. We are at same world but our path would not cross. It seems like the world is conspiring against us. It's sad but that's how it goes for the both of us.

One day, I would have the courage to finally introduce myself to you in person. Until then, I'll just be contented in watching you from afar. I like you a lot, Sterling. No words can ever define that.

Walang pangalan o initials na nakalagay. He really wants to be unknown until he shows up himself in person.

I can't utter even a single word after reading the letter. It was the first time someone confessed his love to me. Kahit sa sulat ay damang-dama ko ang lahat ng emosyon. Puro at sinsero.

But it scares me. Wala akong karanasan sa ganitong bagay. Ang isiping sumugal at magpaubaya ay nakakatakot. Lalo na sa taong hindi ko kilala. Sa taong hindi ko alam kahit ang pangalan niya.

I don't take risk if I don't know what I'm getting myself into. I was raised to always be rational and to be wise with my decisions. This thing is full of uncertainty. I can't gamble without even the slightest assurance of winning.

And so I chose to ignore it. The best way for this is to ignore and forget it.

It's easy. I'll just pretend like nothing happened. Even if the words coming from that guy rendered me sleepless for the whole week. It didn't escape my mind even for a bit.

I'll just need a distraction.

You can do it, Sterling!

Inabala ko ang sarili sa pagtatanim. I let our gardener take a day off. Maaga akong gumising ng araw ng Linggo. Nagulat pa nga ang ilang kasambahay dahil naabutan nilang abala sa hardin.

Iniba ko ang puwesto ng ilang potted plants. 'Yong mga greetings ay nilagay ko malapit sa fish pond. Hindi ko alintana kahit mabigat. Nag alok ang ilang lalaking trabahante na tumulong sa pagbubuhat pero tinaggihan ko lahat.

I need to do this myself. Kahit nananakit na ang katawan ay pinagpatuloy ko pa rin, umaasang mawala sa isipan ang tungkol sa nabasang sulat.

Nagtagumapay naman ako sa huli. Pagkatapos ng maghapong pag-aayos ng hardin ay dinalaw ako ng labis na kapaguran. Nakatulog na pala ako pagkatapos mag shower kahit hindi pa naghahapunan.

Maaga akong nagising kinabukasan at agad naghanda para sa pagpasok. What bothers me the most ay kung ano ang gagawin ko in case makita o makasalubong ko si Zoren. Hindi ko pa rin makalimutan kung paano niya ipinamukha na hindi niya ako gusto.