"Aʀᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɢᴏɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ғᴜᴄᴋ ᴍᴇ ᴜɴᴛɪʟ ɪ ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ ᴡᴀʟᴋ?"
I spoke up innocently before spreading my legs wide open on the bed. "Or do you prefer being a creep staring at me pleasuring myself?"
His right hand went over his mouth almost as if he was holding in...
I stared around the blank room. I felt like I was floating in mid air, like cloud nine.
Then I started hearing small voices whispering gibberish in my ear. "What the fuck?" My vision suddenly faded, I couldn't see a thing. I must've forgot to put on my contact lenses.
People started appearing in front of me but I couldn't tell who they were. My vision cleared up and I saw my mom. I got happy but my happiness left in a flash. "I know you didn't want me but why did you leave me here alone?" I felt the tears falling down my cheeks.
"Mi niña, nunca te quise." My mom whispered. "You're the devils spawn, not even my love por tu papa could let me stay." I couldn't expect much from my mom. She started vanishing and I sobbed harder.
"My daughter, i never loved you."
In her place I saw my father. I felt guilt consume me. "Dad, please forgive me." His eyes softened. "I feel like your death was my fault." The tears kept falling down my face and I slowly turned into a sobbing mess.
"Please take me with you." He stayed quiet. "I prefer being wherever you are, I wanna be with you." He walked towards me, he kissed my forehead and swiped my tears with his thumb.
"One day you'll know the truth, it's my fault you're like this." He stared at me, sadness on his face. "Я не пойду на небеса." He'd always say something in Russian when he didn't want me to know what he's saying.
Then i forced myself to learn how to speak Russian as i grew up. Yet, i'm still a little rusty.
The confusion hit me like a truck. "What?" He started vanishing and I tried to hold on. "What do you mean?" He smiled and dropped a tear of his own. "This is all my fault, I hope one day you can forgive me."
"No dad! Don't leave, take me with you!" I screamed as he fully vanished. The blank room around me suddenly turned black. I could just hear the laughs and see the eyes staring at me.
