Diary Of A Single Father

teach me.

I stared at Dr Ryan the next Wednesday smiling.I had come earlier than usual and had met him on his lunch break.
He ate hamburger and coke.

He made sure to clean up his desk.
Yes l love neat men.
I watched his nurse try to flirt with him and how politely he rejected her signs.
Serves you right bitch. Ko

I was proud of my babydaddy.
He was straight since he was married to a woman before but I was allowed to dream right?
And I did..yes I totally dreamt about him.

Silently watching him.
"So Kyle what did you learn how to do that Jade always did for you?"Ryan asked.

"I occupied the whole bed..all these month..I kept to my own part of the bed but I became greedy and slept rolling around the bed..I even woke up when I realized I was on my own side and went back..I used a pillow to keep me from rolling away"I explained dramatically.

He was laughing silently.
I wanted him to laugh out loud.
"Did you enjoy your sleep?"he asked.

"Yeah..I am proud of myself..I did it"I nodded.

"I'm proud of you too..what will you do next this week?"he asked.

"I wanted to learn how to drive my car..I have a Benz that I haven't driven myself since I got it.."I said.

"I could teach you if you want"he said.
Teach me how to ride you too.
"Teach me..teach me please..I need someone calm and understanding"I said instead.

"Will you be free on Saturday?"he asked.

Any day daddy.
"Yes..11:00..I have a field ..we bought a very large house"I said.
"I know..I dropped you off..twice"he stressed.

"Its a date then"I smiled.

"Date?"he raised his eye brows.
"A driving lesson date"I said quickly.
"Now..how do feel..sexually?"he asked.
"I'm still gay..I'm gayer if it's possible"I replied.

"As a man with sexual urges.how do you deal with it?"he asked.

I blushed in embarrassment.
Should I tell him I've been imagining things about him?.

Will he offer to help me then?
Wake up kye..don't be a joke.

"I..I..I..I used to masturbate alot..but nowadays..I don't..a friend suggested a one night stand..I just couldn't..I really tried..I've tried dating apps too"I Said looking at my shoes.

"Don't be embarrassed dear..everyone has those urges..what do you want in a man?"he asked.

"Someone who loves and respect me"I answered.

"Love . What do you think love is?"
"Its a deep feeling of being happy when you're with that person"

"Does it come that easily?"

"It doesn't but..I can know when a person will finally love me"
"You do?how?"

"The way you treat me"I replied.
"Okay..say.if I give you attention and make you happy..it means I love you?"he looked at me.

"I don't know..I'm not the love doctor here..you are..please help me out"I sighed exasperated.

"You have to give them a chance..give them a chance and see how it goes..don't rush things"he smiled.
"I won't"I nodded.

"I have an assighment for you..ask someone out"he said.
I looked at him.
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"He's a nice man . Cece..I feel comfortable talking to him"I said over the phone.
"He's going to teach daddy how to drive"Ann shouted.
She was doing her assighment on my bed.
"What?are you seeing your therapist?"cece asked.

"No"I replied.

"The only thing daddy talks about is him"Ann shouted again.

I entered the toilet and locked it.
"Don't mind her"i said.
"Do you have hots for him?"Cece asked.
"I can't help it.he's hot and sexy as hell..he makes my heart tingle and my heart shiver"I answered whispering.

"You said you have an assighment right?ask him out"she shouted.

"Are you shouting in your office?"I asked.

"Um..yeah..my boss is here to reprimand me..catch you later..kisses and hugs"she signed off.

I laughed and came out
"Hmmm..love in the air"Ann sang.

"That was rude.interrupting my call"I glared.

"Don't be hard on yourself..it's just cece"Ann hugged me making my lecture go away.