Diary Of A Single Father

I'm sorry

Going through a divorce isn't really an easy thing.

Cece tried to make it easy but no matter what I felt the pains.
I won custody over the kids granting him visitation rights over the weekends and calling every two days on weekdays.

He gave me the house and another unlimited credit card.
I packed his things and left it outside.
Watching the man I spent five years with made me angry the more  I thought about it.

Adam wasn't making it easier,he wouldn't eat the food I make or talk to me.

My own son became a stranger.
One night I couldn't control it.I blocked him from going into his room.
"Talk to me.please"I had begged.

"There's nothing to talk about.the one man I'm proud to show off is no longer here..whose fault is that? It's all yours..so don't stand there and pretend like you care"he said and walked passed me.

I cried.
I cried.
It was the emotion I've been throwing aside since Australia.
I released all of them.

I cried so much that I felt empty.
After a few days.I was cooking lunch for the kids when Jade's mother walked in
She looked around.

I hadn't informed her about the divorce,I wanted her son to tell her.
"Where are your wedding pictures?"She asked.

I looked at her in surprise.
"We..we broke up..we divorced"I answered.
"Why?"
"Jade has a woman.she's heavily pregnant for him"I replied.
She hugged me tightly.

She hugged me as we cried on each others shoulders.
"I'm so sorry..I'm sorry..it's all my fault.I didn't train him right..it's all my fault"she cried.

"I'm sorry..I wasn't good enough"I said.
"No one..no one can replace you..you're the best"she looked at me.
"Papa has a woman?a pregnant woman?"Adam's voice broke us apart.

"What are you doing here?"I asked.
It's only 2:30pm

He should be at his piano lesson.
His arms wrapped around me.
"I'm so sorry.
I'm sorry..I should have trusted you"Adam sobbed.

"I'm sorry too..I should've told you but I didn't want to spoil the image you have of him"i said.

He held me tightly.
I held his face.
"We'll get through this together..I promise"I whispered.
"Yes we are a pack"he nodded.
""""""

"DAD you need to relax while I make you food"Adam led me to a seat.

Ann stared at us with raised eyebrows,I shruggled.
"So are you like friends again?"Ann asked,she's the type that don't keep things to herself.

"You're as bad as dad..I gave him cold shoulders not knowing papa betrayed us"Adam stabbed the knife at her.

"Okay..to defend myself..you wouldn't let me talk and I was to concentrated on making dad feel less guilty to think about what you think..it's my responsibility to take of my dad"Ann replied

"Oh really?what does that make you..a lawyer?doctor?"Adam retorted.

"A caring daughter unlike someone i know"she rolled her eyes.

"Am right people..Adam your food is burning..Ann Sit down..you can also learn since you can't even boil hot water "I came in between them

"Oh..I'm the bad person now..I always knew Adam is your favourite at lease hide it "she said.

"Jealous?"Adam smirked.

"Excuse you children..I don't have a favourite..even if I did.it will be my little girl"I laughed.

"I love you too"Ann hugged me.
We moved to other topics while Adam cooked.

We covered school and everything while avoiding Jade.

"Oh I miss papa"Ann breathed out.
"Me too..he'll call tomorrow"Adam said.
I missed him too but I shut my mouth and watched my kids practise what they were going to say to him.
I cleaned the kitchen while they argued.

I needed to figure out my life now..a new job.

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