A Round Trip to Love 1: LONG WAY HOME

Chapter Thirty Four

He requested for a private room. The waitress dressed in a kimono respectfully sat on her knees to serve the final dish, and retreated from the room, lowering her eyes when closing the sliding paper doors.

" One dish at a time, how bothersome." Lu Feng complained. He is apparently not impressed by what he deemed as excessive formality.

He put on a pretense of sitting the traditional Japanese way on his knees, for all of thirty seconds before giving up, his legs stretching out into a lazy posture. When his feet touched my knees, he did not retract, instead deviously pushing them between my knees.

I was taken aback, and shifted backwards.

Lu Feng raised his eyes: " Are you avoiding me ?"

" No......." I would be stupid not to deny.

" Come closer then." He patted the space next to him, " Don't sit so far from me."

I braced myself and crawled over next to him, not knowing where to place my hands and feet.

" Are you not hungry? Why are you not eating ?"

At the command I started eating mechanically.

" Have a drink." I took the small ceramic cup over and placed it to my overstuffed mouth.

After a series of shots, my face started to heat up.

He stretched out his hands to hug around my waist like it is the most natural thing to do: " Hey, your face is red."

This sentence was whispered right next to my ear, my hand shook involuntarily causing the sake to pour out.

" Sorry..........." The stain of the spill is spreading rapidly on his pants. Holy moly ........... this pair of trousers probably cost as much as my entire month's pay ........... I quickly fumbled for a napkin and starting wiping on his thighs frantically, desperately trying to perform some damage control. Wiping and wiping. My hands touched a hot and hard area.

Lu Feng observed my sudden apprehension and quick withdrawal of my hands, a lazy mocking smile spread on his face: " Is something wrong ?"

" ......................."

He advanced in, exhaling a breath over my face. As soon as I opened my mouth to gasp, he blocked my lips completely and thoroughly. Hugging around my waist he raised me, pulled apart my legs, and wrapped it around his waist pushing his genitals against mine.

The unexpected kiss carried with it a carnivorous lust, his tongue entangled strongly with mine, one hand plunged into my coat rubbing my chest, another hand unbuckling my belt.

" No." I pulled my lips away with difficulty, struggling to grab his roaming hands. " Don't do this................"

" What are you afraid of, no one is going to come in." Lu Feng would in any circumstances remain calm and steady. He skillfully rolled my thin sweater up to expose my chest, bowed his head to kiss my chest lightly, the palm of hands sliding like slippery creatures into my loosened pants, holding on to my hips.

" Stop this........."

Under his forceful kiss and groping, my lustful reaction had long been as obvious as his, but my self-consciousness, the shy and inferior side of me, was stubbornly rejecting his advances, so I kept on twisting and resisting, pushing him to a breaking point. He clenched my waist firmly and raised it up to a higher position, ready to penetrate me.

" No !" I shoved at him, kicking and fighting to avoid the burning hard member he kept pushing in.

" Be good a little."

" No, I don't want."

Probably coming to a realization that my defiance is particularly fierce and persistent this time, Lu Feng reluctantly stopped, and did not continue. He just stared at me coldly for a while, and released me: "Why?"

I crawled down from his lap in chagrin, my knees too weak to stand back up, I sat down to pull back the pants that had fallen down to my ankles.

" Why ? Are you not willing to be with me ?"

His cold demeanor reminded me of the first time we had sex. Cold sweat started forming.

I cannot get into an argument with him, absolutely not.

" It's not that........."

" Tell me now, do you want to start anew ?" He asked emphasizing each word.

" I don't know........." My voice was so soft, carrying with it none of the resolution I should have summoned. I kept my head lowered, no longer certain if it is out of a guilty conscience or exhaustion from my internal struggle, " Just give me a little more time.......... give me some time to think, would you ?"

" There's nothing to think about." Lu Feng was getting infuriated, " Yes, or no, is it that hard to answer ?"

He dressed himself, and kept quiet for a long time, obviously trying to calm himself down and finally said in a soothing tone: " I will not disturb you. Think about it, and give me a call, ok ?" He reached out to pat my head, roughing my hair up into a mess.

It is not that I do not want to, I just do not dare to.

If I take this leap of faith, and fall over, I fear that I will never be able to get back up again.