I thought I had you

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Two years since Taehyung left.

A year since then, you had moved on.

Six months after that you asked me to be yours. Which I always was.

A year and a half since then. You still didn't say you love me. Like a man to his beloved.

But I didnt mind.

Because I finally had you.

My love was quiet but spoke volumes. I surround you with love and support. I was your biggest fan. Your greatest chef. Your devoted maid.

I filled our apartment of memories of us. Of the laughter and happiness we shared. I treasure them the most.

All the poloroids of me and you. I kept it safe. Not only in paper but in my heart as well.

I thought our relationship is already perfect. I thought we'd make it till forever.

But forever came to an end to early.

My pure white happiness was again dyed with the stain of red and sorrow.

Because the on that day, moment you behaved differently, like how you used to be,  I knew.

I recognize the slow burn of the once familliar pain.

Because I saw it in your eyes. All the emotions you've been through, reliving it all over again. And the confusion.

He is back isn't he?

And Im afraid I'd be loosing you again, but like always I chose to smile and hide the pain.

And pretend that everything is alright.

Still writing you, desperately hoping,

Love you so bad, Love you so bad
Mold a pretty lie for you
Love it's so mad, Love it's so mad
Try to erase myself and make me your doll
Love you so bad, Love you so bad
Mold a pretty lie for you
Love it's so mad, Love it's so mad
Try to erase myself and make me your doll

Loving you,
Park Jimin.

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