Through The Dark

To Stay Or Go

Zayn's Pov ...

I just heard the news I rush to the hospital guilt and fear a heavy mix within my system I rush through the doors and see him as I do his machine crashes and doctors and nurses rush around him 

A nurse rushes and they begin to move him " Where are you taking him NIALL NIALL "

This isn't really happening I think to myself as doctors rush around wiring him up to machines 

" W.Whats happening is he gonna be OK " I scream at them why aren't they answering me 

In the end I grab a nurse by the wrist " Why is no one fucking listening to me " I scream 

" Listen all I can tell you right now is we need to treat your friend the best we can Mr ? " she replies 

" It's Zayn and he's my boyfriend please help him " This is all my fault I think to myself If I had ever once thought Niall would be in that car I would have never cut the brakes 

" We are doing everything we can please try to stay calm " She says before disappearing into the room

This can't be happening I can't lose him I think to myself 

The door opens I stand up and run to the door where all the doctors and nurses surrounding my Niall he looks so weak and fragile tears spring to my eyes then I hear the words that will haunt me forever those four words that rip my soul apart.

" There is no heartbeat " 

Holy shit I think mine just stopped beating too I Freeze as my world goes into slow motion the doctors and the crash team around my boyfriend and I just run out of the hospital away from it all.

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I run and run until I reach the corner of my street and I sink to the floor and scream a painful scream tears rushing down my face I killed him I killed Niall it was my fault he died.

" Zayn ? " A voice says and I look up to meet Harry's Green eyes and busted up face 

" What the hell has happened you look." Harry begins and crouches down to me as I sit with my head in my hands shaking 

" It's Niall he's ddead" I don't recognize my own voice 

Harry's eyes go wide " What how " He asks as I have a breakdown and can't seem to form a coherent sentence 

" COME ON " Harry picks me up and takes me into his house 

" Here for the shock " He pours me a whiskey and I gulp it down welcoming the burn in my chest but not easing the pain and guilt and heartbreak I feel inside 

" Yeah it's Harry " Harry is on the phone in the other room and I'm just staring at the wall broken my world is shattered 

Harry comes back into the kitchen " He's not dead " My heart flips 

" What No I saw him they said " I fumble a half sentence 

" They stabilized him Zayn he is still alive " I feel the biggest relief 

" I need to go there " I am on my feet within seconds and pacing for Harry's door 

" I'm coming with you " Harry follows me and we rush back to the hospital 

When we reach there Niall is still unconscious but breathing the nurse I was very rude to earlier approaches me 

" He is stable for now would you like to see him " She asks and smiles at Harry 

" YES " I reply and rush into the room 

Niall's Pov....

so It was weird when Zayn first came here I felt a rush of emotions and my body crashed and they revived me I'm still on the other side but I have to live.

Zayn takes my hand and I feel it " How can I feel you " I say to him but he doesn't hear me 

" I'm so sorry Niall this is all my fault all of it please stay I am crazily in love with you I can't see a future without you in it you are my permanent sunshine in a world of clouds please come back to me I know I don't deserve it but I promise you I will love you everyday for the rest of our life's please just stay " 

When Zayn has finished talking the white light comes again and I know it's my choice time " I want to stay " I scream and then I feel nothing and my eyes start to flicker open my head feels groggy 

" NIALL "  Zayn says surprised and I notice my surrounding the hospital I stayed 

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Soon after doctors and nurses have asses me and still not come up with a theory to how I was so close to death but then I woke up I'm still in pain and tired but I know I wont die I wasn't meant to 

A few hours later doctors and nurses and everyone has been to see me Zayn hasn't left my side and Harry has been here too.

" Hi " I finally speak and Zayn bursts into tears and throw himself on my chest 

" I thought I'd lost you " He sobs and Harry wipes a tear away 

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6 weeks later 

The doctors are pleased enough with my recovery that I can go home Zayn and Harry and Eleanor Greg Perrie all the important people in my life have visited everyday and have kinda put all the bad blood to bed they are getting along and that's good.

" Are you ready ? " Greg asks me as I take my crutches 

" Yeah " I say as the people help me my eyes go to a room in the hospital I have seen before and I turn and look at the room but the memory is unclear like a fading dream 

Some kids playing in the waiting area attract my attention  " Ashton give me it it's my toy " And I think I know that name I'm sure I do. 

I step outside into the blazing sunshine not a cloud in the sky and smile as Greg and Zayn help me into the car with my bags. 

4 months Later....

It's fall now I have fully recovered from my accident me and Zayn are together and have been since the accident Eleanor and Perrie and Zayn are now friends and get along well Eleanor even introduced Harry to a friend of hers Louis and they have been dating for the last 3 months my life's happier Greg is a great big brother I have great friends the fighting the power struggle it's all stopped I guess you could say the accident changed us all made us grow up in a way.

I don't know why or how I am here something just told me to come here I am by myself in a graveyard staring down at a grave tone " Ashton Irwin " it simply reads I put out the fresh flowers onto the grave and then go meet my friends in the park who are gathered to celebrate Harry's Birthday 

"Cheers guys" Eleanor says pouring us Champagne into a glass I look at my friends chatting laughing and ultimately happy Zayn has his arm around me and Louis and Harry look Happy everything worked out in the end every-things perfect now.

I glance around and see a boy in white smiling but as I strain to see better he is gone I don't know why I didn't die maybe it wasn't meant to be or maybe I was meant to live I smile at my friends and the one thing I do know is I stayed for Love for freinship for family 

When The Night Is Falling Down On You We Will Find A Way Through The Dark....

The End 

Authors Note 

Ok Denz lol thats it I have completed the story forever lol hope you all enjoyed it xo Nate