Shooting staron that night
with the star
cascading down to earth
the wish I made
was so far away
from what I wanted
but I was afraid to wish
for anything else
Relapse
with every relapse
with every cut
I try to come back
I have to believe I am stronger then this
that I can fight this
that my suicidal tendencies
can go away
if not what is the point
of the relapse
then to remember
why I want to live
Wind
the smell of the lake,
the beach,
the river,
the waterfall
brings back
the feeling of cold I enjoy so much,
the wind feels different
my spirit soars,
I feel free,
relaxed,
happy
the sigh of contentment comes out
and I feel
human once more,
re-energized,
alive
re-charged
Step back
driving back and forth
I hold on to the hope
one place will make me feel better
but each place holds it's own demons
but the drive gives me the time I need
to be alone,
to think,
and not be in danger of myself
the long rides,
the blasting of music
so I can't hear myself even breathe
anything to get away from myself for a while
I get home,
to arguments and anger
and I go back,
to isolation and depression
the ghosts
are in every corner
I try to step back
further and further
getting so close to the edge,
about to fall
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Damaged Love
PoetrySet of poems that depict love, past abuse, brokenness, and getting better. Part 2 of heartbroken complication.