Damaged Love

Cutting Relapse

If I do that 

and make a small cut

it will get bigger

and I will relapse

if the blood drips out

it all starts again

I can't cut

even if I want to,

because if I cut

I won't stop,

and I will be back to

square one

Favorite Person

It is scary

to rely

and obsess

over a single person

to hurt them

because you love them

and can not be apart from them

and now that I see the damage I make

Not being able to 

die

because that'd hurt them more

but also being in their life

is the biggest torture

ever

because no matter

how much I love you,

you shouldn't be with me

Sunsets

to be with you

from sunrise to sunset

was too much

to ask

for anyone

and that is how I am

too high

and too low

too emotional

and too dead

if the sun is rising

I made it for a new day

and if the sun is setting

you fear that I won't

Vacations

I wish that I

could take a break

from myself

but your vacation