where I boost others up
and not bring them down
where I make jokes,
and make people smile
I want to be that person
that when I smiled at you
while you worked
it made your day
not the one
crying on your bed
beating their nails against her skin
breaking open the surface
I want to go back to how I was getting better
when I was happy seeing you
and going out
without worrying about a label
haven't you shown me you won't leave
haven't I trusted you with things
I hadn't even trusted myself to say out loud?
now as I am alone
and I look around the room
I know that there is nothing more I want
then to be around you
and to have fun, be myself
and have you along for the ride
I was obsessed with labels
and being official
that I forgot
that the best part of our relationship
was the happiness I was feeling on the inside
and that had nothing to do
with the outside world
Better
I was better
new relationships
are hard
but I was okay
I know I can get better
and I know that you make me want to live
I know I can go on living
that killing myself
isn't something I want
I do get disappointed
when I make it alive
after doing something reckless
but seeing you
reminds me that I want to live
that having you in my life
has been for the better
I keep going in circles
wondering
are you helping me
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Damaged Love
PoetrySet of poems that depict love, past abuse, brokenness, and getting better. Part 2 of heartbroken complication.
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