Sometimes idk what's real. I'm pretty used to losing friends on a front end n all but who can u like truly TrULY believe? When u used the excuses "but I feel like I'm going to harm our friendship" or " I'm getting in your way" to cover up the real feeling of sadness. When u know she & he are only your friends for that one reason. Until u finally getting on your feet, now being with those people that make u feel invisible and hopeless and you pushed them away. but your brain just won't grasp the fact that u need to breathe again to feel something besides shit. I've become so fond of the pain and the lurking saddle of hatred. And u just feel like a number. So be it dear fucking society I hate you, I hate you with a burning sensation. I hope one day somebody feels the boiling under my skin and the time of self destruct. I plan to move on toward my none stop thoughts. You've truly turned me into something I hate. Fuck you and your reality.
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im sorry if this is too harsh or too forward n all but u chose to be here ig? but like I guess I will be posting randomly. k bye
