My Fucking life .

I was harsh ..

So this is a little something i wrote when i was in a dark place.. it's a poem and lmao don't judge me i was tHis CLOSE to  giving up on everything . 

 UNCAPABLE 

Where do i start ? 

I'm uncapable , that's a fact. 

I'm uncapable, that's what you said. 

I'm not a try hard, i'm not a die hard, and i'm not your great pride . 

I'm just an uncapable . 

Why does it hurt ? That my pride gets stepped on by your words.

Why does it hurt ? That my throat tightens everytime your glance burns.

It burns with hatred, it burns in disappointment .....

I'm the disapointment . 

I DO wanna let myself on fire for you . Let you watch me burn in front of you. 

One more great pain won't matter, as long as i vanish away_

To ashes i stay_

Gone with the wind i pray_ 

It's too much to handle .. 

Please , these voices won't crumble ! 

They're going on and on and on inside my head .. 

I just need comfort, i need your hand. . 

But why did you walk away now ? after spilling your heart out .. 

Not a word, not two, but a speech . 

I found myself silently crying, wanting to screech . 

It's black it's all i can see. 

It's dark.

Help, it's consuming me ..

 I'm going crazy, please save me. 

i'm not who you think..

Please it's not what you think ! 

It's just a bad time, a bad line said in the wrong way ..

Not what i meant to say ! 

I truly love you , i deeply need you .. 

I wanna be ! but believe me, i'm stuck so free me !

Free me from this hell. 

Free me from my hell.. 

My demons are calling, and my name they're howling  .

Uncapable they're screaming.