there's always somebody better than me. i'm always left for somebody else. always. or have somebody else chosen over me eventually. i'm never good enough no matter how hard i try. even when i think this one person wouldn't leave me. i'm never enough. i just want somebody to stay. i feel so empty and so devestated and lonely. i try so hard to be loving, and to be a good person but it's clearly never good enough. i'm so scared to let new people in, i can't take another loss. 2020 is not my year ooa.
