i feel like i'm constantly walking on eggshells and nothing i say helps, i miss living carefree and now i have to triple check what i say to make sure it won't hurt anyone I love and then it still does. I treat women and men the same and it sucks that I can't because my past is used against me by those around me, I understand it but it's so frustrating still. I just want to enjoy life and be myself and show love and appreciation to those in my life, i'm a very loving and caring and compassionate person and it's hard for me to turn that off. I try, and I try but it's very difficult. I don't have many friends ooa so when I make friends here I really hold them dear to my heart. There's so much I wanna say but I can't. I'm just so frustrated. It's bad enough I have to watch everything I do because of wattpad, i feel claustrophobic however the fuck you spell it. bye
