~Bakudeku OneShots~

~Suicidal deku~

⚠️‼️ Warning this chapter contains abuse, self-harm, suicidal thoughts, r@pe, and more, if you are sensitive to this kind of content then do not read, thank you for your time ‼️⚠️

No quirk Au

Time is set back to middle school
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~Izukus P.O.V~

It was cold and getting dark as the sun was setting, I felt a pain go through my stomach and into my back as kachan kicked me while his friends stood and laughed

It was pathetic, I felt like crying but I couldn't, I've cried so much that no more tears would come out, so I just laid down staring blankly into the distance until kachan had been done with his daily beating

As he was leaving he turned to look at me and said  "pray you'll get a better life next time around and take a swan dive off the roof of the building" as those words left his mouth, I finally broke

I got up from the spot I was lying down, ignoring the burning pain I was in, and walked past kachan muttering the words "maybe I will" and left not looking behind to see his reaction, as if he even cared tch

~TimeSkip~

As I walked into my house I quickly and quietly made my way to my room grabbed a pencil sharpener out of my bin of drawing supplies and headed to my bathroom

As I got into the bathroom I locked the door behind me and slid down to the floor holding back tears

*You can't defend yourself you useless piece of shit* one of the voices spoke inside of my head one

*You're disgusting, you like your bully you fagot* another one Two and another for being gay Three

*You're too fat, you need to stop eating pig* Four, Five

*You lie to yourself and everyone around you that you're okay* Six, seven, eight, Nine

I wince in pain as I make one last deep cut making it a total of Ten, five in each arm. I look down at both of my arms seeping in blood and throbbing in pain and get up stumbling a bit

I look around my vision a little dazed and find my way to the sink to clean my cuts, I look down and see my blood mixed with water go down the drain, and a few tears drop down as well

I bandage myself up and head to my room and go to sleep dreading for tomorrow to come

~TimeSkip to Highschool~

It's been a few years since that incident and nothing had changed, in fact, the beatings got worse, the thoughts did too, and the overwhelming urge to end my suffering

I came out as gay at the beginning of high school and you can probably imagine how katsuki reacted, and yes I did say katsuki instead of kachan, I decided to drop the childish nickname, things just change when you get older, except my feelings, those haven't changed a bit, but back to the story

I got back home from a long draining day at school and take a seat down at my PC and turn it on opening up the discord app and joining my server

UrakaSan: oh Hi Deku, how was your day!
(Btw I know that's not how you spell her name but that's just what her user is)

Deku15: Hey chako, pretty good how was yours?

UrakaSan: it was good! Oh did you hear about this huge party that's going on tomorrow

Deku15: yea I have, are you going to be there

UrakaSan: you know it, how about you are you going?