"I'm not the monster on the inside." • [Tom x Reader]

𝟙. Somethings Off With Tom...

Y/n pov

After moving in with Tom, things were good... but Tom wasn't. I don't know what was wrong but I knew there was something that was on his mind. I've asked multiple times and I always get the same answers.

Today I was going to try and get it out of him. I knew that there was something. At least something.

I walked out of my room down the hallway of our small home and went downstairs to where he was. He was in the kitchen enjoying his Smirnoff like usual. "Hey Tom," I said as I walked to the fridge.

"Hey y/n, do you know we are gonna have for dinner? I don't feel like going out tonight..." Tom says as he took another sip after he said that. "Umm, I guess we can just fend for ourself's or something. Or we can just order pizza?" I offered. I didn't feel like cooking and I know he wouldn't want to.

I've noticed something. Every time, a very specific time, he wouldn't want to go out. This happens once every few weeks, which is honestly off in my opinion. Could he not feel well? Or could he just be lazy? Heh, it will be once in a blue moon that Tom wouldn't be lazy... blue moon... maybe it could be the moon cycle? Maybe... maybe every full moon?!

"Eh, I'm down for whatever you want," Tom says. As I thought about stuff I made a slight face. I heard Tom chuckle, "I know that face, don't think too hard about it we can just fend for ourself's if that will make things easier?" I snap back into reality and blushed a gentle pink. "Oh yeah, uh- I was just thinking about something, that's all." I chuckled nervously.

Tom playfully rolled his eyes, "don't tell me that the full moon is getting to you?" He asked jokingly. So he does know tonight is a full moon, interesting. I didn't even know that it was a full moon until he actually said it. Then a idea popped into my head, "hey Tom, want to stay up all night watching movies?" I asked him.

Tom gave me a look, I knew that look. He was nervous on what to say and glanced to the left. Reading body language is easy, if someone ever looks to the left that means they are going to lie to you because they are trying to come up with something on the spot. If they look to the right then they are trying to remember something.

"I, um, I was thinking of just going to bed early tonight you know? I've felt tired all day," he said looking back towards me. I was going to wait too find a right time to ask this but I wasn't going to let him off the hook. "Can I ask you a few questions Tom?" I asked as I went to go sit down in front of him. He gave me a look. "What's wrong?" Tom asked showing a little bit of concern, "I was going to ask you the same thing tom." I said giving him a serious look.

Tom sighed, "this again?" He asked. "Of course yes again Tom! I've been worried about you, you've haven't been acting like yourself.." I said quietly. "I'm ok y/n, don't worry there is nothing wrong.." Tom says softly. He cut me off before I said something and gently grabs my hand. "Please y/n, I'm really ok," Tom says trying to reassure me. I wouldn't let it fly.

"I know what I'm talking about Tom, and I know what you know too.." I said quietly. I slightly blushed and gently rests my other hand on top of his and scoots closer to him. "Y/n I always tell you the same thing every time you ask.." Tom says quietly. "What is the point of asking if you know the answer?" Tom asked softly. I sighed looking down. I didn't want to argue with him. "Is there stuff going on with you? Is that what is causing you to worry about me?" Tom asked. I looked up at him and sighed, "no, nothing is wrong tom, I'm more worried about you." I said quietly and looked back down.

I felt Tom lift my head back up to make me look at him. "It's ok y/n.." he says and brings me into a hug. I hugged back and we soon both stood up to give each other a better hug. He rubbed my back gently and strokes my hair with his other hand. I just blushed more and listened to his heart beat as we kept the hug there for a few moments. "I think you should try to go to bed early, relax your mind and body you know?" Tom suggested and I hummed no. "That won't help Tom. Every time I ask you, every time, you just avoid the question..." I said looking up at him. He was taller then me, I blushed a little more as he got close to my face.