Hanging in there

Lonely hearts

I miss having friends. having a routine. having a reason to get up every day. getting to laugh at that one kid in class who just can't seem to understand the teacher. lunch. you don't truly appreciate disgusting cafeteria food until you're sitting alone in your kitchen eating ramen every single day for months at a time. you don't realize how much fun you have throwing fries at your friends. you don't realize that the girl in the back of the class who keeps smiling at you actually cared and wasn't just weird. that kid from your math class that would make your heart skip a beat just by looking at you is just a memory now. I mean I still have friends. but I don't have memories, or laughs, or anything with them. all we do is text. I never even see tyler. I'm just that person that disappeared. would anyone even remember me? all they have to remember are the rumors. maybe it's better off this way 

I'm sorry for posting so much but these have built up in my notes haha. anyways this part is about the reality of online school. it's not as fun as everyone thinks