Lacuna

"Loving you was the most exquisite form of self destruction" These are the words that I've said throughout the journey of loving you.

It was hard to feel that the universe is against you for giving us obstacles that challenge our relationship. It caused our separate downfall but we stood together and until now are ready to fight any obstacle that will come.

8 years ago...

I remember the first time I saw her, she was trying to reach the white t-shirt that was hung above her height. I smiled at her cuteness.

I walked towards the girl and reached for the white t-shirt. The moment she turned to me the shirt was already at my hands which I held closely to me.

She smiled at me. "Thank you—"

I smiled back. "See you" I gave her a wink then went to the counter.

"Jerk" I chuckled when I heard her mutter under her breath.

I looked back and laughed again when I saw her trying to reach another shirt. Why not call her boyfriend to help her than struggle reaching something she couldn't?

"Arkhe!" I smiled when I saw Veronica walking towards me. I greeted her with a kiss on the cheek.

"Hey, are you done looking for your outfit on Monday?" She lifted her hands that are occupied with two shopping bags each.

My eyebrows knitted. "Isn't that too much?"

"Baby, a girl gotta have lots of clothes so that we have more choices to look good"

"Alright, alright" I playfully messed up her hair then took the paper bags from her hands.

She then hugged my right arm and we walked to together.

While we're on our way to Veronica's house, the girl I saw awhile ago crossed my mind.

I wonder what's her name.

'Sh*t. I have a girlfriend for f*ck's sake. Why am I thinking about another girl?'

When we reached Veronica's house, I kissed her goodbye then left.

****

"Honey, welcome home!" Then he attempted to hug me which I immediately dodged.

"Back off dude"

He laughed. "So, how was your date with Veronica?" Jason, my best friend teased.

Veronica is my first love and first girlfriend. We've been dating for 3 weeks now.

"She's cute while trying to reach the t-shirt on the top part" I utter.

"What? Trying to reach? But Veronica is tall?"

My eyes widened as I realized what I just said.

"Sh*t"

"Dude, what the hell?" Jason spat while raising both of his eyebrows. "Are you—"

"F*ck no" I face palmed. Why is she still on my mind. "I just saw a woman. That's it"

"But you called her cute"

I stood. "I'm tired. I'll go to sleep" And went to my room. I threw myself on the bed, facing the ceiling.

I'm just tired. Yes, that's it.

****

"Good morning, bro" Jason greeted then I greeted back.

"I'll go ahead. I still have to fetch, Nica"