Save Me

Jedediah Is Always Okay

(Jedediah's POV)

"Excuse me?"

Amelia looks at me confused.

"I may or may not like Octavius"

She laughs, "I can't help you if you don't say you like him or not!"

"Fine" I groan, "I like Octavius."

"There we go!" She smiles at me, "What's so bad about that? You look sick."

"He has a boyfriend" I mumble.

"What?"

"He has a boyfriend!" I yell. I sob and cover my face wih my hands.

"Oh." She doesn't say anything else, it's probably hard to know what to say to someone in this situation.

"I don't want to ruin his happy relationship, or lose some of the few friends I have!" I cry.

Amelia is silent and just reaches over and hugs me. I'm still crying and I can't stop. I don't want to be seen like this.

"I'm still going to try to eat lunch with them." I say, my voice wavers.

I dry my tears and stand up.

"I'll be back if it goes wrong."

The walk to the table feels longer than normal. I put on a smile and sit down on the opposite side of Octavius and Lance. They are handing hands. Octavius' face is a bit red.

"We are dating!" Lance announces to me, crushing all of my hopes that maybe they weren't.

"I'm so happy for you guys!" I gush. I hope I don't sound as fake as I really am.

They smile and continue talking about whatever they were taking about before. I try to join the conversation, but they just ignore me. I don't eat my lunch, I feel to sick to eat.

Negative thoughts pour into my head.
I should be more happy for them.

They don't care about me.

"You okay, Jedediah?" Octavius asks, "You're really pale."

"I'm fine." I weakly say with a smile.
"Jedediah's always okay!" Lance laughs and keeps talking to Octavius.

I can't take this.

I stand up abruptly and walk off. I need to go see Ahkmenrah, he's probably better at giving advice than Amelia.

They don't even notice I've left.

A/N: Uhh I haven't been writing this as much because my friend got me to watch a show and I can't stop.)