As a teenager, I am aware that I was really a wild, pretentious and naughty little girl. Ilan lang ang nakakaalam niyan, mga kaibigan lang na madalas kong kasama sa tuwing nagsasaya. Dahil kung pinsan at pamilya ang kasama, I always try to behave and pretend like I'm not boy-crazy like my cousin Amanda. Hindi ko rin alam. My family have this perception of me that I'm someone who's very sociable, yet, conservative.
Or maybe something like that. Dahil doon ay parang nag-aatubili rin tuloy akong maglaway sa mga lalaki kung sila ang kasama ko. Kaya kapag nasa mga kaibigan, I'm always on my wild naughtiest self. I can freely express myself without putting a dent to the character that my family made for me.
Don't get me wrong. I have no hidden sentiments with my family. I love them, I'm happy with them. I love going out with my cousins but there are times, that I just really want to be surrounded with people who also a lot like me.
Nice but naughty. Virgin but fucking... horny.
Kaya laking pasalamat ko talaga nang pumayag ang mga magulang ko nang nagpaalam sa London gustong mag-aral. Aside that Europe offers best of the best universities for Fashion Designing, which is my dream course, I also really want to live in a place that no one knows I came from a respectable and old-rich clan. I can paint the town in any color I want.
It's like hitting two birds in one stone. While I'm busy molding myself to be one of the greatest designer in the future, I can also freely be myself. It's all I ever wanted. To do things that I really want, without the fear of being judge by your loved ones.
"He's here."
Natigil ako sa pakikipagtawanan sa mga kaibigan dahil sa binulong ni Denim. We are surrounded by a group of popular people from our university, both girls and boys.
"What?" pasigaw kong tanong dahil sa lakas ng tugtog sa buong kabahayan, hindi magkakarinigan kung hindi magsisigawan.
My friend leaned towards me again with an unmistakable slutty grin.
"Our target is here! Look!" sabay turo niya sa loob ng bahay nina Stan. Nasa pool area kami at dahil gawa sa glass ang buong kabahayan, kitang-kita ang mga nagkakasiyahan sa loob.
I saw Jameson, greeting the crowds. Halatang kadarating lang mula sa trabaho dahil medyo bagsak pa ang balikat dahil siguro sa pagod. My heart is immediately filled with excitement as I watch the man socialize with his younger brother's friends and colleagues.
Stan, one of the popular and cool basketball player in our school hosted a farewell party for our batch in their three-storey house. Yesterday was our graduation and upon knowing that most of our batchmates are going to school abroad, we decided to launch a huge party that we will never forget. Tumulong ako sa preparasyon para mas bongga at talagang hindi makakalimutan ng lahat.
Well, to be honest, hindi lang iyon ang dahilan ko kung bakit ako tumulong.
Stan's older brother, Jameson is just a year older than us. Noong nakaraan taon pa ito grumaduate at hindi ko na maalala kung kailan ko siya unang nagustuhan. He's been my long time crush. Sa tuwing may mga laro ay talagang ginagalingan ko ang pagche-cheer dahil baka sa wakas ay mapansin niya na ako. But he never did.
The rumor has it that he have a thing for older girls. Hindi raw pumapatol sa mga mas bata sa kanya kaya siguro kahit kailan ay hindi ako makita na potensyal na nobya kahit na madalas ko naman itong nakakasalamuha because he's a basketball player and I'm a cheerleader. We often meet in the court and even outside. Our worlds is really not that different. Dahil katulad sa mga palabas, athletes and cheerleaders always go along.
He never tried to hit on me. Kahit na alam ko naman halata niya na may gusto ako sa kanya. He's always casual and friendly whenever we talk and I, with my fake reputation couldn't also make a move. Kahit na gustong-gusto ko na siyang sunggaban sa tuwing nagkakausap kami.
