Love or lose

Chapter 1

They said that I shouldn't trust him. That he had a way to break everyone that came into his life, without even slightly caring. They said that he was a monster.

But I just always kept wondering if those words were really true. Because when I looked at his eyes, I didn't see a harsh, careless grown up without any feelings. I saw an insecure boy, who was afraid of love. And I felt sorry for him.

So despite all the warnings I kept on caring for him. We were together almost every day and it didn't take long before I had completely fallen for him. I truly liked everything about him. The little scar just below his chest, the freckles on his nose, his extraordinary golden eyes and maybe most of all his shining black hair.

All I ever did was thinking about him. So in the end I chose to be with him, even though I knew that meant that my family would never speak to me again. I came fron a really rich family and in their eyes Aiden, who had lost all connections with his family and wasn't especially wealthy, was absolutely nothing but a boy that would inevitably ruin my future.

I still moved in with him, nearly stopped talking to my friends and even dropped out of college. Nothing seemed important except for him. And nothing was. At least not before a few months ago. On the night that he went and broke my heart.

We had been arguing, about something very stupid. He believed I had to drop my job at the cafetaria in order to start my studies again, but I wanted to wait untill the new semester had started. He disagreed and I told him that it was not his choice to make and that it was his fault that I had to stop my old study anyway. I don't know how the fight escalated so quickly, but he left the house shouting. I didn't hear anything from him untill I got a text saying that he needed some space.

I obviously became angry at him, so I texted him there was no need to come back if he was going to behave like that. He actually never replied to that message and I didn't hear anything from him for a long time. It was a lonely and uncertain period. There was not a lot I could do though.

Then one of the few friends I still had left told me that he seemed to have a new girlfriend. This news completely destroyed me. And it is also where my story starts.

Today I am meeting up with Aiden, for the first time since he left that evening. I really hope the rumors aren't true and that he still cares about me, so that we can move forward. But I don't have a very good feeling about this.

As he knocks on the door I nervously walk towards it and open up. I know I probably don't look to good right now. The lack of sleep had formed dark purple circles around my blue eyes and my wavy champagne blonde hair is combed inaccurately and still quite unruly.

As his gorgeous eyes meets mine, he immediately avoids my gaze. 'Isabelle', he mumbles. 'Long time no seen.'

I try not to make a sarcastic remark at him or scold him for calling me by my full name, which he usually never does.
'Yeah', I utter softly 'it has been véry long.'

He sighs. 'I am really sorry okay, don't be angry with me. I know I should have replied to your messages and your calls, but I have been busy.'

'Busy with what?', I ask him. Scared of the answer. He absently looks past me before answering. 'Just things.'

'That is not what I heard', I tell him, slightly trembling. His eyes find mine, clearly surprised. 'Oh really, what did you hear then?'

'That you found... somebody else', I tell him, while I await his answer tight-lipped.
He remains silent. His face strangely expressionless.

'Of course I didn't immediately believe her', I continue. I trust you, you love me right?', I ask him while looking into the eyes of the boy before me in an insecure way. 'Of course I love you', Aiden says while smiling. 'I love you so much that I couldn't live without you.'