Swag kingseries: stupid cupid

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Kurt's POV

Buong araw kong iniwasan si Justin. It's just hard for me to see the girl that i love knowing that she's bound to marry someone else.

This is bullshit! Ilang beses akong binalaan ni Liam pero hindi ako nakinig. Now my love for her is consuming me pieces by pieces.

"Kurt let's talk" bungad sakin ni justin paglabas ko pa lang ng classroom. Mukang inabangan nya ako para magkausap kami.

Nilampasan ko sya at hindi pinansin. Nasasaktan ako! At putang ina ayaw kong saktan sya pabalik. I cant control my anger at ayaw kong ibunton sa kanya ang galit ko.

"Fine.." malamig kong sinabi, "to make his official.. im breaking up with you!"

"Kurt please naman o"

I look at her coldly. Tears rill down her face and it crack my defenses just that easy. Fvck! Ayaw kong harapin ang katotohanan na hindi sya para sakin dahil ang sakit sakit na. Pero hindi ko rin sya kayang tiisin at ipagtabuyan ngayong umiiyak sya.

Cupid must really be stupid. Pinana nya ang dalawang taong hindi pwede sa isa't isa. He's supposed to make people fall inlove and be happy but his arrow hit us to be broken.

I hold her hand and take her to the garden. Makakapag usap kami ng ayos dito. We sit at the bench and look for something that will distract us. Wala kaming masabi sa isa't isa.

"Alam mo bang engagement mo ng araw na 'yon?" I asked coldly.

"hindi..." Tipid na sagot nya.

"pero alam mo na ikakasal ka na sa iba?" I asked. She was caught off guard. She did'nt utter any word. I smiled sarcastically "so alam mo? at hindi mo man lang sinabi sakin? Hinayaan mo kong magmukang tanga?"

"ipinagkasundo nila si Christian at si Janice nung mga bata pa sila. Believe me Kurt, wala akong alam. Dahil kung alam ko na ganto sana noon pa lang umiwas na ako sayo" her voice cracked and tears shadowed her chinky eyes. "Chinesse is for Chinesse Kurt. We value our tradition. Ang akala ko hindi na ako importante sa tradisyong iyon. Im not a first born. I thought, malaya ako na piliin ang lalaking mamahalin ko, pero sa akin nila iniatang ang responsibilidad ni Janice sa pamilya.."

"and you did'nt refused?"

"no, i did'nt" umiiyak na sagot nya sa tanong ko. My heart clenched at what she said. Hindi nya man lang ba ako kayang ipaglaban?

"and why?" I scolded. Fvck! I cant control my anger anymore. Ubos na ubos na lahat ng pisi ng pasensya na meron ako.

"because they never give me a chance to speak, at kahit naman tumanggi ako itutuloy pa rin nila. Kurt, im sorry"

umiiyak sya kaya umupo ako sa harap nya at hinawakan ng mahigpit ang kamay nya at hinawakan nya rin ng mahigpit ang kamay ko.. somehow nagkaroon ako ng pag asa na pwede pa rin kaming dalawa.

"Justin, mahal mo naman ako diba?" mahinahong tanong ko sa kanya. My tears cascade and i have nothing to do but to let it.

"mahal na mahal" sagot nya sa tanong ko.

"Then be with me.. let's go out. Let's escape your world.." binitawan nya ang kamay ko matapos marinig ang lahat ng sinabi ko. My brows furrowed at what she said. What foes she mean? Nag iwas sya ng tigin at binawi ang kamay mula sakin.

"i cant hurt them" sabi nya sa mahinang boses. "this is my only chance to prove to my parents how much i love them, that i deserved to be their daughter. ito na nga lang yung hinihingi nila sakin e, bibiguin ko pa ba sila?"

Umismid ako. Anger is consuming me again "are really that numb? Fvck Justin! They are just using you"

"dont say that" sabi nya at pinahid ang luha sa mga mata nya. She has all the hopes in her eyes. Alam kong nagbubulag bulagan lang sya at alam nyang tama ako. I just cant let her do that. Hindi ko sya hahayaan na mabulagan sa pang-gagamit ng pamilya nya.

"They hated you Justin. Alam mong hindi basta basta magbabago 'yon. Hindi ka ba nagtataka kung bakit bigla bigla na lang? It's because they need you for that fvcking merge!"

"madali sabihin sayo Kurt! kasi buong buhay mo naranasan mo magkaroon ng masayang pamilya, e ako?" She raise her voice at me for the first time. "alam mo na kasi yung feeling na tinatanong ka ng mama mo about how was your day? o kaya kung kumain ka na ba? tapos sasabihan ka ng iloveyou. ginagawa na sakin ni mama "yun" she said sobbing really hard. this time 'di na ako nasasaktan para sa sarili ko kundi para sa kanya, awang awa na ko sa girfriend ko kasi sa sobrang sakit na nararamdaman nya, hindi nya na nakikita na niloloko at ginagamit lang sya.

"I want to be with you Kurt. But if being with you means breaking my parent's heart. I would rather be hurt and miserable for losing you rather than to hurt then. Im so sorry.."

"You wont break their heart because they dont love you purely!" I hissed. Hindi ko na nkontrol ang pag sigaw. Im frustratedly opening her eyes to the truth! "That's purely business matter Justin, dont be so stupid!"

"stop it Kurt! i love them and i will do whatever they want me to do. I will never be the first Yu to ruin the tradition!"

She said shutting me out. Wala na akong nagawa ng iwan nya ako. Doon ko hinayaang lumaglag lahat ng luha na kanina ko pa pinipigilan.

So this is it?

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