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OLIVIA
Have you ever felt nothing and everything at the same time? Have you ever cried yourself asleep every night, hoping and praying to be someone different? I have.
I think that's all I really could do, cry. I cried, at first, at the excruciating pain that ran through my entire body. Then, I cried because of how mentally exhausted I felt. I cried until I didn't have any more tears to cry.
When I wasn't crying, I stared at the same spot on the wall for, god who knows long. My curtains blocked any entrance of sunlight. I was left with only my thoughts.
Its been almost a week since the incident, and I haven't been to school. My mom isn't ever here to notice, and Cam and my friends were quick to believe my story about being "sick".
I can barely find the motivation to climb out of bed. My body aches with slight movement. Bruises are visible on my neck, but can easily be mistaken as hickies. A slightly brown ring rounds my eye, with spots of purple. My lip is swollen and puffy. I haven't thrown up blood in a few days.
All though, inside I might be okay, I still feel repulsed when I look in the mirror to see my reflection. It hurts me even more to think back on who gave me them.
The memories dance inside my head. Every thing he did and said. Almost as if it's permanently strained in my mind. I'm scared, terrified even, that i'll mess up again and he'll do this again. I can't explain the amount of physical pain I feel, and I couldn't imagine putting Hagen through that.
If I stay far, far away from Hagen, then both of our problems are solved. I want to protect him. I like being friends with him, a lot, more than I originally wanted to. So even if I do have to push him away, at least it'll take away the probability of Caleb going after him.
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hi angels! this chapter is extremely short but it's more like a filler chapter of liv's thoughts. i wanted to update since i haven't in a while.
please don't be a silent reader. leave me a comment/question!
thanks for reading. i love you endlessly, - ora <3
