Hidden words from the heart ❤️💔💓

You're Listening

Ya Allah!
You listen,
You always listen.
This is why I wanna talk,
Speak my words out,
I don't know why,
But I feel like I'm already dead,
Entangled in a fantasy of my own,
I don't know where I'm heading,
Where I want to go,
Or where the people lead me,
I don't know,
What I am,
Who I am,
Just a name given,
And that's what I'm known by,
I never wanted fame,
I never played a game,
I never did blame,
All I wanted was a change,
In me,
In my world,
Within these walls,
If I'll be heard,
All I wanted was a little peace,
A little happiness,
But I forgot that happiness doesn't last forever.

If you're listening then hear me out,
I don't want a fantasy full of miseries,
I never dreamt of a home full of troubles,
I never wanted a cage,
In which I was told what to do,
What not to do,
I never wanted to do the wrong thing,
I never wished to be liked or disliked for anything,
I never expected good to come to be, but didn't want the worst either,
I never wanted to go where others led me to,
But I was tied with those chains of hope,
Those chains that would never let me be who I really am,
Thsoe chains that are determining my destiny,
I'm tied, to those chains,
That are killing my quietly, kindly........

If you're listening me then hear me out again,
I'm living cause you told me to,
I know I rarely do call you,
But the reason why I'm in these chains isn't you,
I know I rarely do remember you,
Hardly maybe just an hour,
Maybe less,
Who knows,
Maybe never,
But still you're soo kind,
I  know you could read this,
I also know,
Only a few appreciate you,
For what you did for them,
I don't want to be unthankful,
I don't want to be unkind,
I just wanna cry,
I don't wanna tell anyone,
I don't wanna show anyone,
I just wanna show you,
I don't know why,
You're always there,
You're always there to listen,
I cry sometimes that I forget about you,
But I know that even if I do,
You never,
I know you're my savior when I'm in my worst moments,
I don't know much about you,
But you know alot about me,
You're always there knowing what I'm doing,
You're always there,
Helping me achieve what I want,
You're always there,
Trying to make me the best of me,
Maybe it's my flaw,
That I'm the stupid one here,
Who doesn't get to understand you My Lord,
Maybe this is a punishment,
Maybe a reward,
Who knows,
I'm just a mere doll,
Made out of clay or sand, maybe less,
Who knows?
Only you know,
This is why I trust you so bad,
And I still will,
Even if you'll test me again and again,
I'll accept it,
Until I perish,
I'll live with it.