Concealed Identity (Completed) [R-18]

Prologue

Iza

Everybody does not question my identity. Nobody is curious of my own gender. I have been living my life in this world for almost five years now without speculations of me being a real woman even with my physical features which is almost identical to a woman's body.

But the truth will never be kept forever.

Gregory Savier Hans, I have never considered this Jaguar a threat to my identity.

I never thought I would hide in someone's identity just because I wanted to study in the university I dreamed to finish my education.

It was just one mistake.

Just one mistake

And I didn't see that coming.

How I wish I could bring back that time just not to give him the slightest reason to question my own identity.

I was able to hide it with the girls but how come I wasn't even able to hide with this Jaguar who possesses a face of a Greek God and a body every woman would absolutely fall in love with but not me. Miguel, Kiefer, Shannon and Kyle are all handsome, there's no doubt on that. But Gigs is way too far for my liking. He is like the better version of Miguel. I've witnessed how Miguel does his badboy ways just to be able to claim possession of Sabina. I've seen how Kiefer granted his own wish in life by having Grasha in his side. I've witnessed how Shannon struggled to fix a dying marriage with Kim. And I've seen how Kyle proved that blackmailing a woman is the best way to have Kyla. Funny to think but with those Jaguars, the bad seems to be good and the good remains to be good. That's practically how everything works with these Jaguars. And I hated the fact that I am stuck in a situation in which I have to prove my identity to the only Jaguar who questions it.

" Iza, what is really wrong?" Grasha asked me. I don't even know how to explain everything to her. Paano ko sisimulan na sabihin sa kanya kung ako mismo ay ayokong sabihin.

" Si Gigs, kagabi pa iba ang pinaparadam sa 'yo. He isn't in his usual state. He looks at you as if you are not a friend, Iza. Iba ang pagtingin sa kaibigan at iba rin ang pagtingin sa iniibig. You know what I mean" Grasha said as a matter of fact. I am fully aware of those things.

I closed my eyes as I remembered what he told me last night.

" Strip naked in front of me Iza and prove to me you're a man " His voice was cold and raspy.

" No " I told him. He answered me with a ghost smile.

" You can't because you're a woman" He said with so much assurance.

" I told you I am NOT a woman, Gigs " Pilit ko paring sinasabi sa kanya.

He smirked. Pagod na akong makipagtalo pa sa kanya.

" You want me to believe that?" He countered.

" Yes " I almost didn't even hear my own voice.

" Then fucking strip Iza. Huwag yung binabaliw mo ako ng ganito dahil kulang nalang aminin ko na sa aking sarili na nagmamahal ako ng bakla" His voice now was filled with frustration and anger.

" I will NOT strip in front of you, Gigs. I will NOT" Wika ko bago ako takhang aalis ng tumayo siya para pigilan ako.

" Are you going to wait for me to do it myself, Iza? Because I am in that very thin line of doing it now." He muttered. I looked at him with my eyes filled with no emotion.

I removed his hand on my wrist.

" You are wasting your time on the wrong person, Gigs. May problema ngayon si Shannon. You're supposed to be with him now." I told him but he answered me with the most unexpected one.

" I fucking have a problem too Iza. Tell me, how can I help a friend solve his problem when I can't even solve mine" Wika niya sa akin. Ramdam ko ang kakaibang emosyon sa kanyang boses. He is desperate.

" Ano bang makukuha mo sa ginagawa mo ha Gigs. What benefit will you receive in doing these things?" I asked him.

He straightly looked at me in the eyes before speaking once more.

" You. I am doing this because I want to formally have you" Honesty was evident in his voice.

" Are you hearing yourself, Gigs. Lalaki ako" I defended. I was lying.

" I lied, Grasha. Lahat kayo pinaniwala ko na lalaki ako at bakla. But the truth is, I am born a woman" I told her. Kita kitang ko ang gulat sa kanyang mga mata.

" All this time akala namin lalaki ka Iza. Kaya pala masmukha ka pang babae kaysa sa amin. Your body figure is perfect for a woman" Grasha told me. Huminga ako ng malalim.

My secrets are already exposed. Time will only tell when everyone will know it.

" Can I ask why, Iza? Bakit?" Grasha then asked me.

I closed my eyes.

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