• SAY WHAT YOU NEED TO SAY • (Jared x Reader)

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I walk around the house and it's actually pretty neat, I figured dad fixed it since mom wouldn't care. Oh! a note on the fridge

Dear [Y/N],

I cleaned the house when I went home because I can see how stressed you are lately. Don't worry, I know you were at Jared's. His mother told me. If you're not gonna be home because it's his birthday, it's fine just leave a message, I might not be able to respond but I will read it. I left some money for you in my drawer, don't worry I warned your mother not to take any. Spend it wisely honey, I love you.

Love, Dad

Dad is the sweetest and my fucking will to live.

Anyways, I go up to his drawer and saw like 4 stashes of money
.. damn that's a lot. I really have to catch up with him some time, maybe he got a promotion or a raise without me even knowing. I need a father - daughter date soon, like the good old days.

I head to the supermarket with my saved up money and the money dad gave me. I promised Jared that Evan and I will go to his house early in the morning so we can spend the whole day there, plus his parents are gonna leave at like 8 pm so midnight talks here we come. Anyways, that means his parents will be there for the day till 8 pm so eh. Whatever but I'd like to not just go there early, I wanna be there the second the clock hits midnight. Maybe I can climb in through his window? because he doesn't sleep jesus if I try to prepare something while he's asleep, he's most definitely not asleep. Specially on the night of his birthday.

Okay okay, I'll send him a long message while waiting outside his window. Once he's done reading it and replies, I'll jump in his room and scream happy birthday. Lmao I know he said to stop it with the jumpscares, but whatever it's his birthday.

Now gift shopping

>> YEET TIMESKIP <<

okay, here are the things I got him

T-Shirt

because who really, truly understands what a Jared thing is? amirite

Keychain

it says that because he always drives us to school, and I want him to always drive safely. I need him.

Ring

when I first saw this ring, it shone so bright it's worthy of being Jared's. And it's simple design is just perfect and I hops he'll like it

I also MADE a gift instead of just buying

I sacrificed a whole deck of cards for that. And my energy to think of the things I love about him.

Anyways it's only 1 PM and I don't know what to do. Maybe I can cook him something? or bake a cake? dang that means I have to bring it to his house at like fucking midnight. Maybe I can convince Evan to come with me at midnight, he'll help me bring stuff. As if Evan will say no though. Anyways I wrap up the gifts and sat down on the couch, it's the worst part now. The waiting game.

I don't fancy being alone with my thoughts, it can lead to depressive ideas and actions I don't wish upon to do today. It's a special day tomorrow, I can last. Maybe it might go well then he tells me likes me back?

All of my insides curled up when I suddenly realized he likes a girl from a club of his. I suddenly feel a wave of pain and deep melancholy, tears start rolling down my face.

Everything's losing it's colour

what if I went through all that and he doesn't even like me back?

Everything doesn't mean anything anymore

What if our friendship breaks and Evan's gonna be stuck in the middle

I start remembering all the hurtful things my mom tells to me

he doesn't like me back

worthless

he does NOT like me back

mistake

he DOESN'T like ME back

trash

HE DOESN'T like ME back

useless

HE DOESN'T LIKE ME

burden

HE DOES NOT LIKE ME BA-

my phone rings

1 Message from "TheInsanelyCoolJK"

TheInsanelyCoolJK
psst

[insert nickname]
what?

TheInsanelyCoolJK
nothing, I'm just bored here in class

[insert nickname]
then actuallly listen you nutjob

TheInsanelyCoolJK
haha what do you think of me?

[insert nickname]
a nerd.

TheInsanelyCoolJK
I feel attacked. A nerd? like are you serious rn?

[insert nickname]
yea, you do know you're actually pretty smart

TheInsanelyCoolJK
I have never been so offended. Oh shit teacher, gtg bye

[insert nickname]
okay bye

What a nice distraction? now where was I?

oh haha

HE DOES NOT LIKE ME BACK

these words just keep echoing in my mind, begging me to listen. Maybe I should give in and stop all this shenanigans I planned on?