Fairy Tale Fail (Ekis Babies #3)

Day 50

12:00 AM

Do you really love me?

SelfLove (Wade): Yes.

Then can you promise me one thing?

SelfLove (Wade): Anything.

Be with her.

SelfLove (Wade): What?

Be with Annamae.

Na-realize ko na parehas tayong hindi pa handa.

You, with your guilt.

Me, with my trust issue and anger.

We both deserve a love without anger and guilt mixed into it. We both deserve to love and be loved back without anything holding us back.

And this, this is holding us back.

Ayokong magmahal na may guilt na nakasunod sa atin.

Masakit pero ito ang tama.

Na-realize ko na hindi pa ako handa. Na-realize ko na sobrang lala pala ng sugat na iniwan sa 'kin ng tatay ko nang iniwan niya kami.

Hindi mo deserve 'yong Joyce Anne na madaling bumitiw. 'Yong Joyce Anne na madaling magalit. 'Yong Joyce Anne na hindi buo dahil sa ginawang pang-iiwan ng tatay niya sa kanya.

I have to heal myself first, Wade. And I realized that I don't need someone to heal me. I have to heal myself.

Same sa 'yo.

Hindi ko deserve ang Wade na kinakain ng guilt. Hindi ko deserve ang Wade na nakakulong sa nakaraan.

You have to heal yourself as well.

Wade, be with her.

SelfLove (Wade): I love you.

I know.

SelfLove (Wade): I love so much.

SelfLove (Wade): The one I love is you.

I know.

Thank you for loving me. I know how hard it was to love me. Thank you, Wade.

SelfLove (Wade): Do you love me?

Yes.

I love you.

Pero hindi pa puwede, di ba?

SelfLove (Wade): I want to be a Wade Yozon who's right for you.

It must have been hard for you.

It must have been hard keeping everything in secret.

It must have been hard atoning for the sins you did not commit in the first place.

It must have been hard living with the guilt inside your heart.

Despite the lies, despite the pain, I want to say that you are a good man, Wade.

You tried holding everything even if it keeps on breaking you.

Wade,

I'm letting go not because I don't love you or I don't believe your love.

I'm letting go so we can have the chance to heal without each other.

Sobrang dami nating hang ups sa buhay, Wade.

You, with your guilt.

Me, with my anger.

Ayokong masayang 'yong love dahil sa negative emotions na 'yan.

Wade, thank you for making me see how beautiful it is to be in love.

Thank you for making me realize that even if it gets painful, love is still a beautiful feeling.

SelfLove (Wade): Fuck.

SelfLove (Wade): Ang hirap, Joyce Anne.

SelfLove (Wade): But I understand.

SelfLove (Wade): It was so easy saying hello to you, Joyce Anne. Yet so hard to say goodbye.

SelfLove (Wade): But we need to, right?

SelfLove (Wade): Goodbye for now, Joyce Anne.

SelfLove (Wade): This is me respecting your wish.

SelfLove (Wade): This is me trying to understand you.

SelfLove (Wade): This is me showing my love for you.

SelfLove (Wade): Always remember that in my heart, there's only you right now.

SelfLove (Wade): When we are finally free of our demons, I'll come back.

SelfLove (Wade): I promise.

SelfLove (Wade): I love you, Joyce Anne.

SelfLove (Wade): Thank you for being the light in my life when everything seemed so dark after she left.

SelfLove (Wade): Thank you for hearing me out.

SelfLove (Wade): Thank you for trying to understand even if I'm undeserving.

SelfLove (Wade): Thank you so much, Joyce Anne, for letting me into your life even if I only brought you pain.

SelfLove (Wade): Goodbye for now?

Yeah.

For now.

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