reversal desire

chapter THIRTY NINE

I broke a sweat, unable to say anything.

My father wanted to return back home with me.

How was that even possible?

He looked at me, trying to search for an answer.

I looked down, clinging onto my backpack.

If I agreed, he'd go back home with me and expose me.

Out of all thoughts, one stuck in my mind.

What if Adrian knew?

What if Elliot knew?

Wait, Elliot doesn't even know me well.

I tried wiping away my tears, but they kept on forming all over again.

I was terrified. I wanted to run away and escape from this place.

I had no intentions of seeing anyone. Everyone has to remind me of my past.

Its like everything is a reminder, or more like a punishment for what I did.

I shook my head in disbelief as Adrian slid his arms into mine.

I didn't see it coming, because it only terrified me even more.

I panicked and abruptly snatched my hands away from his. 

I knew that it'll be okay. I just had to wait and pray for the best.

I was trembling inside, so I couldn't even move properly.

He pulled me in a hug, "I'll change myself and everything. Just for my daughter."

His warmth, his familiar tone that I never forgot, and his words.

My eyes widened at that specific word, which caused me to throw a meltdown all over again.

I turned back and whispered, "Get your luggage."

Tears rolled down my eyes, and I couldn't control them one bit.

It was unfair.

After all these years?

I had to forgive him, but I couldn't bring myself to.

After everything he has done to my mother and I, there wasn't any cure.

He abondoned me, only because he was so ashamed of me.

He left, married, and had kids.

Then mother died.

Did he ever call?

No.

Did he ever check up on his daughter whom he abandoned?

No.

Then we met.

Did he hug me back?

No, but he slapped me.

Then He disappeared.

Did he every try looking for me?

No.

Or try to ask about my condition?

No.

Then here we are.

Whats next?

I didn't have a choice but to grab the luggage and walk towards the seats.

I wanted family.

I couldn't just get it like that. I had to wait.

What would I do if my past is revealed to Adrian?

I don't know, because I don't think it'll even matter more.