When You're Ready

~The Untamed Insecurities~

Shawn's P.O.V.

September 9, 2014. The second to the last tour that I will be participating on for this year, I just can't believe how time flies so fast that I didn't know what to do anymore. It made me feel a bit scared knowing pretty well that soon we will be going on our own separate ways and might probably lose contact with each other.

Brad and the boys planned to rest for just half a week and then promote more of their songs, they are having so many interviews scheduled as well as I but we would be focusing more on the album that I am going to release next year. The girls, according to Camila they will promote their songs as well and is also planning to release another album. We all already have our busy schedules so there's a probability that we might not encounter each other much in the near future.

I would really miss having this tour, I've met so many people, had so many experiences and memories, but one reason why I really can't forget this tour is because I've made so many friends. So many to count as the crew members even got to be my best friend, it was all Camila's doing, she inspired and made me who I am. She made me less nervous, less shy and found confidence in me. And with that I will forever be thankful to her.

"Just one more day after this then you're off to rest and prepare for a new song"

I was sitting on the vanity in my dressing room in Wolstein Center in here Cleveland, my make up artist wanted to stlye my hair right mow even if I would atill need to have a short rehearsal at the stage. Andrew sat beside me on the other chair as I was just done strumming the strings as I tried to discover a new tune and melody in hopes to write some new songs.

"I honestly don't want this tour to end"

In all honesty I really do wish that time would stop so I can relieve the memories that were made here. All the times that made me smile, I want to relive all the memories that were made here, all the happy thoughts, all the scenes that kept playing in my head non stop. I didn't want this to end, I wanted to stay where we are right now...

"Attachment issues?"

A glare came to me right away as the topic we are going to have is heading towards that same never ending topic everyday, he usually makes it a habit, asking me every night, right after the show and before we sleep. He would always talk to me no matter what kind of place and will really open up about that topic, good thing he doesn't do that when Camila is with me.

We have grown closer than ever during the tour, everyday we always stick to each other like glue, have lunch together and talk about random stuffs. There were times that she would open up and I would gladly listen to her no matter what, we would tell stories about our childhood, talk about random things more.

That for sure is the number one thing that I would really miss on this tour. That friend I have that I will never forget.

"Don't try to push that topic again, you know where that will lead to"

"Right, a chaos between you and me including your parents since we would non stop tease you about it" He was chuckling as we remembered how truly annoyed I was with him and my family when they kept pestering me, teasing me about Camila.

The talk got so out of hand that I became so inresponsive of my parent's calls and even disregarded Andrew's words, I didn't listen to them for that one whole day, avoided them because I hated that they kept pushing me, making me think that there really is something in between Camila and I. It lasted only for a day then when it was night my parents apologized as well as Andrew, I felt so bad for ignoring them all so I eventually forgave them and promised not to bring up that topic ever again as I might really hate them so much next time.