Amorphous

1 ; Lonely

I see you from a distance. My madness My favorite. Because I'm too afraid to just say hello. I'm like a crazy bastard or like a crazy pervert who follows a girl.

I just like you from afar. Because I know there are clear boundaries plastered in front of me. I know your name, your home, where you work and I know you have a lover. But have you ever noticed my presence?

I do not want to be a bad person who snatched someone else's lover, so I only admire from afar. Look after you. But if i have the chance I want to be with you. I know you are a very loving person.

It all started when I accidentally saw you being abused by a mother, it looks like she is your customer, you patiently listen to the mother resolve her frustration or when a sweet child cries in front of your flower shop, you with a very loving look helping the child wait for their parents come back and give him ice cream to stop crying. When his parents return, you give a large sunflower to the child in the hope that the child will become as warm as the sun.

From that moment on, I melted by only watching you cut the stalk after the stems of those beautiful flowers and when you arranged them into a beautiful bouquet.

But when your lover comes and you greet him with a warm smile, I really hope you smile at me like that. I want to be your reason to smile happily. But look at the lover who does not know your own self. Come with a bitter face and ask you for money again and again. Even though he works but still asks for money from you. Aren't you asking where the money has gone?

I really want to come to you and say everything, all the despicable deeds of your rotten lover. When he got drunk at the club with the women of the night. Paying their sex and gambling. But still the loss he got.

Aren't I better than him? I work in my own company even though it's not too big but I can guarantee your life and some of our children someday if we have them. Guarantee the happiness and comfort of your life. And I swear I only gave my heart once in front of God, to you. Will the opportunity come?