Not Broken Yet (Andy Biersack Bwwm)

Chapter One

Alex's Pov
Every day you make a certain choice. And in your mind, you never really know how the outcome really is gonna change things.

Maybe you choose to drink coffee for the first time in the morning before work. Or maybe you wanna rethink a decision you already made and wish you could take it back.

Sometimes in my life, I think back on every decision I ever made. Which adds up to a shit ton of choices I had made. It's like a game in some ways. One way you go down a path but you can't really press the reset button in your life.

I smiled brightly kneeling down scooping up my five-year-old son Aiden. He was such a ball of energy and was my pride and joy of my life.

"Hey, there sweetie." I pressed a giant kiss onto his face making him squeal. He had a perfect mix from me.

He was quite small then most five-year-olds in his kindergarten class. But he was beautiful he even happened to get traits from his father.

He had his blue eyes which I always would see as Andy's.  "Mama, why did you pick me up so early?" He questioned his chubby little hands were grabbing at my face making me focus on him making me smile.

"Well mommy has to work, but I have to bring you with me, cause its gonna be all night." I explained to him gently already starting my journey to the car.

I usually never had to bring Aiden to work cause I didn't work that much.

But recently Juliet has been wanting a much better album lately, and since I was on her management team, and was the main one who wrote her lyrics.

I had to bring him with me. I couldn't just leave him at home. But none of the management team knew I had a son, not even she did.

"I get to see where you work? Yay!" He giggled loudly making me breathe out a chuckle holding him closer on my hips.

He was one choice I never regretted making because he was my only happiness at that moment.

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"I'm sorry I'm a little late Juliet, I was taking care of something important." I apologized to her shifting Aiden on my hips watching him drink his apple juice too fast, but I wasn't here to question him.  He was content.

"It's alright." She answered spinning around in her seat surrounded by laptops and recording equipment.

She turned to face me and her face twisted into a surprise one when she saw me holding a kid. "Woah. . ." She breathed out.

I gently sat him down on the couch close by, setting his bag down and gave him a gentle look,  "Stay here for me okay? All your toys are in the bag, along with snacks." I told him. He puckered his lips out for a kiss.

I gave him a big one before I went to go sit by Juliet who was still looking shocked.

"I didn't know you had a nephew." She chuckled quietly clicking her pen deeply. 

"Actually he's my son." I corrected messing with my curls a bit. She was even more shocked.

Yes, I worked for my best friend's wife who her husband happened to be my best friend in the world Andy Biersack. Who also is the father to my five-year-old son.

Five years ago a night of curious passion happened. He wasn't my first. But he very much was the last man I slept with.

We made a promise to never bring it up again on a mutual agreement that we were curious about what it would be like to sleep with one another.

Not too long after that, I was pregnant with Aiden but he never knew cause I hid it so well whenever we hung out.

Maybe the weird food cravings gave away much but he never said anything.

Not a year later he and Juliet had gotten together and I was taking care of Aiden alone because I didn't wanna interfere with their life. But for five whole years, I have hidden Andy's son from him.

Did I feel guilt? A shit ton of it would I ever let him see him? Of course, I would if he ever did wanna see him.

It took a while before Juliet finally stopped asking questions I told her his age, and name and that was it before she was asking me to help write romantic lyrics.

It kinda brought back maybe a year ago memories.  I wrote the lyrics for not broken yet, which for her were meant for Andy.

Maybe it was hidden feelings I had for Andy but I never would admit that. He knew I worked with his wife, and sometimes he would drop by to surprise her.

Please I'm hoping he doesn't. Around four hours passed and I had a few lyrics written down chatting with Juliet I didn't hate her, but I didn't entirely like her.

I tolerated her because I worked with her. I chewed at my pencil flicking my eyes to watch Aiden play with some dolls he had.

He liked to play with everything which made me happy that he was a full head of everything already. When the door to Juliet's studio opens I watched as Andy came in.

He was here for one thing, Juliet but his attention went to me giving me a smile still it landed on Aiden right away when he noticed the new person in the room.

"Hey babe." Juliet greeted.

"Hey." He called back his attention still on Aiden. "Who's this little guy?" He asked shutting the door. I quickly dropped all hopes of being able to hide it for long.  I knew this day was gonna come.

"Aiden come to mommy." I quickly exclaimed watching while Andy's eyes budge out. Aiden got up quickly rushing his small legs towards me and jumped in my lap hugging me.