Numb The Pain (Sanders Sides)

Pills

Quick note: this entire book is gonna be a trigger so I'm sorry :(

  Virgil POV

I watched Thomas take the pills from the other side of the room. Patton didn't look to happy. Princey was beyond overjoyed and the calculator seemed satisfied. I fell over. It hurt like a bitch. But Thomas's happiness comes first. I snapped and I was back in my room. I collapsed on the floor, a crying, shaking mess. It felt as though my insides were being ripped out. Suddenly the pain stopped. I rolled back over. This was only the fifth day. It felt horrible. I wanted it to be over already. I quickly got up. I walked out of my room trying to look intimidating. I'm pretty sure I just looked depressed. But that isn't my thing. Depression was taken away many years ago. I walked into the kitchen and grabbed a plate, the plate fell through my hand. I stared in horror and let out an inhuman scream. My hand was gone. Wait my hand is gone. It's gonna be over, it's all gonna be done. I let out a sigh of relief. Soon Patton rushed in followed by the other two morons. "Are you okay?!" He asked clearly panicked. I covered my hand. "Yeah I'm fine, just dropped a plate." I said walking past him. "Ok, kiddo" He said as I walked away. I basically sprinted to my room and slammed the door. It's finally gonna be over. I fell to the ground crying. Why can't it just be quicker?! It's painfully slow. My body began shaking violently as a threw up blood on the floor. Can't I just die now.