November 1, 2003~ Namjoon ✔️

November 2007

nari

He makes me happy.

The way he smiles and looks at me like I'm the only one who matters.

The way he actually likes me.

So maybe I'm only fourteen.

There's no age limit to love, or maybe like. I'm not sure. I'm in that in between stage where you're unsure whether it's love or like.

But yes, I think I might love Jae.

I'm not going to the cemetery this year, I'm spending the night at my friend's house.

I also don't know if I can bear to see Namjoon after everything that's happened. I can imagine how he'd feel if he found out that I moved on.

I had to move on. I can't stay wrapped around a guy I only see once a year. It'll just make me miserable.

I run my fingers around the ring he gave me before slipping it off for the first time with my shaky fingers.

It's time to let go.

namjoon

I'm so excited to see her. I styled my hair and ironed my shirt. I wanted to look nice for her.

I always look forward to these meetings with her every year. I got her another ring as well.

I bet she'll be even prettier. Maybe we can finally have some more interactions?

~

I hop out of my car and I see her family. Where is she? Maybe the bathroom?

She doesn't show up.

Is she okay? Why isn't she here?

No...

She should be here.

She has to be here.

Where are you Nari?